Monday, September 28, 2009

Memories of a Free Festival--September 26, 2009


Walking to the DuSable Museum of African-American History, I see fire trucks, police cruisers, random ordinary cars, and cops directing traffic outside the University Medical Center, and I never find out what it was all about.


Davis and I see Ken Chaney's Awakening, who in one hour perform the most intense collective music anyone could ask for, six men who have obviously been doing this for years, decades, in perfect harmony. The standout is Ari Brown, whose compositions "Wayne's Trane" (where he combines two melodies into one cogent whole) and "Groove Awakening" are catchy and complex, inspiring flights of sheer fancy.


Trombonist T. R. Galloway stands at the side of the stage, unsure in the shadows, while the band plays a song he wrote about his wife, hands in pockets, a little bemused, nervous, insecure smile playing on his lips.


When I was in the Boardman Orchestra, during practicing the bass, whenever I got bored (sadly a usual occurrence) I would take off on various musical ideas inspired by the original sequence of notes and keys...they were incredibly simple ideas usually based around repetition, but listening to Lorin Cohen's downright funky soloing, there was little difference between what he was doing so brilliantly on stage and my goofing off. That may be the true brilliance of jazz, understanding music enough to have an infinite number of combinations at your fingertips, but always knowing exactly which one to play for maximum effect. Sort of like the superego filtering out the id...no, I won't go there.


Davis and I walk over to the Midway and I trod on the grass for the first time ever. It feels nice. I eat half a red pepper, mixed greens, goat cheese, carrots, and raisins sandwich. It tastes nice. Peter joins us, having slept in after the dinner party, and Karen and Teresa follow. The company is more than nice.


James Wagner, who founded the Festival, died a few months ago, and Ari Brown and Willie Pickens lead an all-star band on the Midway. The day has been brisk, gray, and cool, but as the group plays Wayne Shorter's "This Is For Albert," the sun breaks out for the first time and never goes away. Of course, Mr. Brown warms us all up with a sizzling "Naima..."


Davis departs for a violin band at Rockefeller Chapel, and the rest of us go see Tatsu Akoi. Picture this...in an oak-paneled Oriental Institute lecture hall, an ebullient Japanese man whose smile never fades begs us to buy his CDs. Three saxophonists, including avant-garde legend Ed Wilkerson and Mwata Bowden on the unusual trip of bass sax, clarinet, and didgeridoo. Three very young girls playing the traditional kaito drums, three feet tall and booming with the thunder of God...and the music that comes out sounds exactly like the most glorious Blue Note sides of the 1960s, solos bopping like mad, drums keeping the rhythm, and Akoi laying out the foundation on his bass, happy as the man whose girlfriend said yes or who cradles his newborn or who holds his Ph. D. or who just had a really great day. Never seen anything like it, never heard anything like it.


I pick up my black-eyed peas for Melissa and Mika's dinner party (that's another post) and wrap it up by catching Willie Pickens solo with his trio at International House's grand but over-AC'd assembly hall. The repertoire is just that, a little Monk, Coltrane, Golson, Powell, Shorter, Jimmy Heath, but Pickens sounds like a reincarnated Oscar Peterson, 77 year-old fingers rhapsodic one moment, bangingly percussive the next, playing "Four In One" as if it's the last song he'll ever do and he needs to squeeze in as many notes as possible.


Everywhere I went, these musicians had smiles on their faces. No brooding Trane or Miles. Jazz really makes you happy. Made me happy.


Saturday, September 26, 2009

Never Underestimate the Power of a Top Hat, or, Lisa From 3 to 5

So...the last few days have been devoid of posts because I finally hit on the solution to reaching some kind of success rate in this business of graduate school. To wit, read everything and take notes, then read it again...and take more notes...and read it and your notes again and take further notes if need be! It paid off, because lights are shining in the darkness on Freud and Lacan, but between that, re-reading the 900 wonderful pages of John Sutherland's annotated Vanity Fair Oxford edition, and similar readings, and future papers...I warn my readers to not expect regular posts too often.

But, since orientation, I have had some terrific lectures, a great precept group meeting where I learned to share my insights more openly (for even when I'm wrong, which is most of the time now, I get closer to being write through listening to others...everyone in my group is helping me understand better), and moved towards better senses of argument tracking and precision of language.

I also had two different nights out.

Thursday, I went to Old Town with Peter, Alex, Erik, Jess, Ashley, Julie, and Jamie to see the Second City. Before that we had a dinner at an Irish pub called Corcoran's across the street, which served the best corned beef I've had outside Musso & Frank. Turned out to be Guinness's 250th anniversary, so we got samples, glasses, noisemakers, and cardboard top hats...looking at mine right now next to my Emerson diploma. I wore that hat the rest of the night and had a fantastic time...the Second City was hilarious, especially the second half of their show, with an improvised sketch about a private eye, a parody of the Hall of Presidents at Disney, and a plea to adopt normal black children instead of Asians and Africans...and my group talked all night and laughed and wandered the streets and rode El trains and Metras...it was a nice way to unwind.

Last night, Karen Slovin gave a dinner party at her apartment upstairs. She made a fantastic pasta, I tossed a salad, Peter baked brownies (finally got to try them...delicious!), and twelve people or so congregated around a crowded food table despite the roomy living room and drank a LOT of red wine. Victorian meal style. On the one hand, I got accused of being something not very nice at one point in the conversations. On the other hand, I had a blast talking to everyone concerned (including my accuser), and found another person who, like Peter, I feel a bit switched at birth with...Jenny's opinions on religion were almost the same as mind, just with different word choices in expression. I also met Preston and Harold who live on the second floor. Two great guys who study computer science and math...and whose midnight ponderings regarding Russell and Whitehead's Principia Mathematica helped my tired, overfed body realize it needed sleep. (No disrespect when I say I came to college to escape mathematics.) Should have worn the top hat...

I have to wrap up, for today will be my last non-work-centered day of the year, and it will be spent at the Hyde Park Jazz Festival and another potluck dinner. BUT...yesterday I had a small lunch with Lisa, proprietress of Color Me Veggie, in town for a wedding this weekend. She and I are on remarkably similar roads...dealing with personal issues and professional doubts, but a lot sunnier than before. At least she looked and felt sunnier, and I know I feel sunnier these days...and though we'd spent two months together in L.A., then met in Boardman, and now again in Chicago...a hard life...it was hard to let go when we gave each other a good-bye embrace. She would love what I'm doing now. Especially with the modern poets.

But Lisa is part of my present which reaches back into the past. Always there and wonderful...but right now, I've got the future on my mind.

And now, to be or not to bop...

I also had two

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

A Kaleidoscope of Amelias...and a Sad Confession


Let's get the bad news out of the way, first.


The last 24 hours have seen a troubling return of my mood swings. Ever since I finished my first paper ever with supreme confidence, which still holds, I have been feeling a significant social anxiety. So many new friends who actually like my company and who don't care what I do or how I do it...and I become horribly flustered, apologetic, soul-bearing, calling Mom and annoying her when things get hairy, sweating buckets over a tiny stove in someone else's apartment...but the thing is, now I know, and now I can do something constructive. My mind is unable to conceive of the idea that other people see me differently from how I see myself, and I am convinced that since I am never satisfied and always want to prove things to myself, I have to prove things to others. Peter hammered in the spike when he called it "execessive empathy."


I think I need counseling. Not extensively, but enough to help me know for sure that other people do not hold me to the demanding standards I hold myself to. Writing about it and admitting it is the first step.


But last night's pot luck where I made an imitation tomato-vodka sauce bow ties was a load of fun, as was orientation today when I met a lot of new people, actually got a girl's phone number (if for no other reason then to prove I could handle myself), and joined the Pub...and decided to eliminate beer from my diet. I've had four in two days and I think that's helped me become mentally out of sorts.


But what I was thinking about today, emerging from a shroudy mist of Bela Lugosi playing God (enough to turn one agnostic) and imagining what the world would be like if it was only the U. of Chicago with its annoying ombudspeople, and using Foucault's literary theories to get to the heart of Sigmund Freud (a BIG perhaps), is Amelia.


Four Amelias who have become inertwined in my soul.


Amelia Johnson, who will finally be born only to die in March 2010, almost three years after I dreamed her up after a chat with Stephen Christy on the streets of Santa Monica, and back then she was called Emily, but to my great publisher's mind An Elegy for Emily Johnson sounded too much like The Exorcism of Emily Rose. Can I argue with the man who's done so much for me, along with Dave "Imagist Supreme" Valeza?


Amelia Pace-Borah, the lovely, good-hearted MAPHer from Austin, Texas with pixie blonde hair, a really cool fiance, two dogs, and a basement apartment. Not a bad symbol for the sort of person I hope to set up housekeeping with someday.


Amelia Last Name Unknown, Peter's friend in the city, whom I know only by proxy, but whose name is too striking and coincidental for me to ignore.


And Amelia Sedley. I finally got my copy of Vanity Fair, 2008 Oxford Edition, for Elaine Hadley's class, and tomorrow I begin re-reading (Nabokov would approve) my third-favorite novel of all time. And as I mused over my happiness it struck me that when I first read it during the Conference Summer, William Dobbin had stood out for me, the poor, earnest, heart-the-size-of-a-watermelon-and-pure-gold (Lawrence S. Ritter/Jimmy Austin) soldier who makes good, but who cannot get over his love for his dead best friend George Osborne's wife...even though he knew Amelia Sedley was far too good for George and, by the end, not good enough for him. But as a figure of hopeless devotion, I felt I understood Dobbin more than any other character...and maybe I was reaching back to that when I chose the name Amelia for my figure, a woman more worthy of lifelong near-worship.


Today at the Smart Museum our tour ended with a series of artworks by a seventy-something black man who traveled the world and came to draw multi-colored landscapes which combined the real and the way he thought the real felt, like taking a picture with your subconscious holding the camera.


The Amelias are like that for me.

Monday, September 21, 2009

A Few Small Links

...before the next post. Though today I discovered that teleology does not have to necessarily end in anything! See, the Marxist would critique that Freud's discussion of foreplay as a mechanism is automatically leading towards a teleological end of intercourse, BUT, there is also a pleasure in experiencing tension by itself, and a pleasure in practices like flirting where you don't know what the end is but you know there will be some end and all the joy comes from neither party having any preconceptions, and...okay, I'm talking like a grad student. I'm halfway between turning in my first paper and a potluck dinner. Give me a break! I could go on about how the desire to achieve an idealized sexual subject-object relationship is actually a desire to return to a state of non-differentiation when we had no concept of subject or object...fine, I'll stop.

All of these came from Arts & Letters Daily...

http://www.miller-mccune.com/news/this-is-your-brain-on-kafka-1474

Or, in my case, this is why I love Borges and why I get so much pleasure in dissecting Eagleton, Freud, Foucault, etc., for every hard bit of reading we do will force us to impose logic...will make us smarter.

http://www.nybooks.com/articles/23111

Andrew O'Hagan, who wrote a decent novel I read in the Pretty Pictures era, now offers up an appreciation of Samuel Johnson's 300th birthday much shorter than mine, and more informative. Another reminder that despite James Boswell's excellence, there is always much more to a life than one 1,000-page text can hold. I feel for Johnson, ambitious, determined to succeed as a scholar, trying to be a friend, hungry for female companionship and understanding...if only I could write a dictionary of my own.

http://www.reason.com/news/show/136084.html

Tribute to Ted Kennedy and link to article I haven't read yet but is on the Rostan mainframe...apparently, English professors discovered that in the Victorian novel, the agonistic (NOT agnostic) structure prevails of heroes v. villains, and the heroes are more often than not conscientious open-minded nurturers while villains are undisciplined self-centered social dominators. The idea is that this resembles the psychological evolution of humans from egaltarian to political, structured, altrusitic creatures, which makes sense for Darwin's culture and a progressive era. Trollope would have agreed...how much he would have been embarrassed by the extraordinary piece I just read arguing for the lesbian subtext of Can You Forgive Her? is another story.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

"Won't You Let Out Your Heart, Please, From Behind That Locked Door?"


Abigail Zitin, soon-to-be-Ph. D., likes Mr. Rostan's Thoughts About Things at least to a degree...if her comments on the "single page" I wrote about on Friday are an indication. Her lead-off comment was that the blog shows a "fluent, clear, and expressive prose style," which I DID NOT show any traces of on that page. It was my own misinterpretation of the prompt. However, after taking very careful notes during the precept group meeting, I revised the whole page...doubled it, even...for what will be my first graded paper in the MAPH program.


I was nervous, to be sure, for a while. The terms of MAPH clearly spell out that a B- average must be maintained in the Core and a B overall for the year. With so much work and so little grades, the margin for error is, well, marginal. But I have to tell myself that working hard and doing the best I can will result in the success I know I can have. Bill the would-be philosopher-king said it best on Friday when I confessed my worries: the fact that I could go home the same night I got my exercise back and immediately start over meant I had nothing to worry about.


The past three days have seen two hours, MINIMUM, devoted to the paper. But I have also made time to relax...to eat Karen Slovin's squash, re-watch the Noam Chomsky documentary they showed us at Emerson, and debate literary theory and the best "entrance music" there is. To talk to my parents as they settle in to a truly empty nest. To learn how to play an H. P. Lovecraft-themed board game of Lovecraftian complexity from the hostess with the mostest on the ball, Karen Singerman. To experience the delirious pleasure of the 2005 Lifetime movie Cyber Seduction: His Secret Life. (Message to high school students: pornography is bad, pornography will wreck your and your family's life, pornography will introduce you to slutty girls who claim you beat and tried to rape them if you reject them, and pornography should always be called by all four syllables.) To feel the Godly ecstasy of services at Rockefeller Chapel, the most grandiose church I've ever been in.


And to listen to a little George Harrison.


The Beatles all shot their best wads as solo artists before the end of 1973. It may be debatable who had the best solo career overall, but as to what the best solo album is, no argument on my part. I love John Lennon/Plastic Ono Band, Ram, and Ringo, but the triple-vinyl All Things Must Pass is one of the greatest moments in rock 'n' roll history. Period.


George Harrison was not a simple man. He was a passionate lover and devoted friend but also a recluse. He was known as the "Quiet Beatle" but could become the most fiery and uncompromising of men if you argued against his personal credo and value...and on top of that he had a delightful, whimsical sense of humor. And he was known all over the world with the sort of fame which makes you filthy rich, but his overriding quality was a deep and sincere love of God and the spiritual.


All Things Must Pass is a statement of character and beliefs, expressed by a brilliant musician, expressive singer, and thoughtful songwriter who hitherto had been restricted to one or two songs per album. George seized his day and throttled it.


From a purely surface perspective, the album is almost flawless. You can't have a better aggregation than the Beatles, but George, playing a melodic slide guitar throughout, did the best he could: Eric Clapton, Dave Mason, Gary (Procol Harum) Brooker, Gary ("Dream Weaver") Wright, Carl Radle, Klaus Voorman, Jim Gordon, Ringo himself, I think Jim Keltner, and Badfinger for good measure, all layered together with some apropos strings and horns by Phil Spector at the top of his game. The melodies stick in your head, and George's voice was never better, running the gamut from light-hearted to earnest to prophetic to sweetly near-seductive.


And under the surface? George's lyrics are a combination of philosophical observation, romantic probing of the self, and religious exhortation. All Things Must Pass is for the most part a record with the higher powers on mind: I imagine George, 27 at the time, pondering his place in a world where his public identity was now as individual as his private one, and both were given by the blessings of God. In Beatles songs like "Within You Without You" and "The Inner Light" he had considered the nature of the divine and how it links humans together. Now, beyond "My Sweet Lord," he good-humoredly warned against excessive attention to religious doctrine in favor of focus on faith ("Awaiting On You All"), mused on the light and dark sides of the universe ("Beware of Darkness," "I Dig Love"), accepted the mystery of it all (the gorgeous title track), and offered up a plea to the higher powers ("Hear Me Lord").


But the other parts of his personality came through as well. "Apple Scruffs" and "Ballad of Sir Frankie Crisp" are charming, knowing, semi-comic sketches, while "Wah-Wah" and "Let It Down" let him rock out like the Carl Perkins-lover he was. And while musically he never lets you forget that he was the same man who wrote the immortal "Something," lyrically he brought back its heartfelt mood in the album's two standout tracks, the Multiple-Walls-of-Sound "What Is Life?" and a cover of Bob Dylan's "If Not For You" which ranks with Jimi Hendrix, the Byrds, and Garth Brooks as the greatest cover of a Dylan tune ever, and I usually favor it as THE BEST. Dylan, a man with as complex a character as Harrison, also co-wrote the opening "I'd Have You Anytime," and allegedly the one song I haven't been able to get out of my head, the countryish "Behind That Locked Door," was about him.


But the definitive track on the record is the song which appears twice, "Isn't It a Pity?," a tune about the Beatles' break-up on one hand and the inability of humanity to come together in love, peace, anything on the other, which is first a massively-orchestrated epic and second a ruminating acoustic piece. The literary analyst in me is interested in the two placements of the song, which does NOT bookend the album per se--version one was the end of side one, after "Wah-Wah," while version two is the penultimate track before "Hear Me Lord"--but the emotional me is always moved by the little anger, the little sadness, the resignation.


All Things Must Pass was just what I needed to listen to as the MAPH year began. In its way, it has as much food for thought as Freud and Foucault, but conveys its message in a far more melodic manner. When George Harrison asks for God's blessing after learning to accept the world as it is and the changes which will always follow, it is nothing but inspirational for a man in his own time of change and growth who knows alone he is nothing but with faith, love, and friendship, will make it through and hopefully build a better world before it's all over.


"It's time to start smiling, what else should we do?"


P.S. Garth Brooks was not a typo...any skeptic should hear his piano-and-voice cover of Time Out of Mind's "To Make You Feel My Love."

Friday, September 18, 2009

A Single Page




The first paper at the University of Chicago, assigned Wednesday afternoon by Miller, was akin to the thoughts emerging from the id and filtered through the superego so the ego can make them nice, shiny, and sensible. Write a single, double-spaced page tracking Freud's argument that there are multiple sexual instincts (very important, btw, because if there was only one instinct it would imply a normal form of sexuality which would make so much of the world perverse and mentally "wrong," which is anathema to Freud and should be to anyone) by taking one of the perversions and relating the multiple components and motive forces Freud argues they have. Do not summarize, embellish, or go point-by-point but stick to the text. This assignment will not be graded.




5:00 p.m., Wednesday: I start taking notes


6:30: break to eat Peter's linguine and veggie meatballs with this really sweet tomato sauce...many thanks on my end to my roomie, whose excellence with my favorite food fueled my efforts to finish this. In return, I helped him as best as I could since, we being in the same precept group, we're not supposed to know who wrote what paper.


7:15: resume compiling notes, finish, write a first draft and make my analytic exposition fit on a single page


9:15: break to do the dishes and watch an unexpected fireworks show with Peter and Karen


10:15: reread paper and realize I was writing about multiple perversions and not just one, but that's why I took so many notes! Fairly easily rewrite paper to focus on one very-well explained perversion.


12:20 a.m., Thursday: go to bed


8:00: following workout and breakfast, an hour of revisions and refining the language, continually readjusting to keep it in one page


10:00: after excellent meeting with Professor Keenleyside (whom I sat next to at the English luncheon way back during Campus Days), I retreat to the Regenstein, where many fellow MAPHers already are in the act of final typing and printing. Read over paper again, feel great, until a casual remark from a colleague whose name escaped me at the moment (and stil ldoes) about parsing makes me read it one more time and figure out that one, the entire final paragraph is needless, and two, a final structural overhaul will result in both a more logical and less summarized paper! Diligent, finger-flying acts of copying, pasting, changing words, and spell-checking ensue, but all from a state of calm. It's like when I was falling behind in the Verbal GRE and took a deep breath, mentally muscled through, and earned a 730 which made me feel so damn good.


11:20: print out twelve copies, only one of which bears my name


11:37: turn in the paper 23 minutes before the deadline


1:00 p.m.: having been suddenly recalled to the apartment right after submission when AT&T sends a man to hook up the Internet (which really works! Wired and in the loop, to use Anna Neher's favorite phrase!), I proceed to spill my drink in the lecture hall while balancing my lunch container on the desk and trying to retrieve my seatmate's coffee cup, and then spill that as well. Needless to say, my mind was almost useless for the rest of the day.


But the lessons learned from this single page are going to serve me well. I discovered that all my stresses vanished in the face of working on a difficult problem, and I took great pleasure in trying many solutions before finally making something work! And in the future, when I cannot waste an entire evening, I shall make sure I immediately plunge into a brief but focused activity to keep my mind sharp...reading a good book, for instance.




The rest of my life...I sunk into a small depression Wednesday afternoon stemming from a sudden fear of my worthiness in the program and my own psychological blocks...thinking I upset the world, and not wanting others to pay special attention to me even though when I need help or am clearly suffering emotional pain I require attention, and holding those I respect in way-too-high regard. But I was out almost as soon as I fell in! Very rare and very good. It helped to have a great advisory meeting, a long talk with the MAPH mentors, and two brief but crucial talks with Abigail which ended with both of us understanding the other a lot better while keeping the mutual good feelings which have been there since our first meeting...I'm lucky to be with her. Also helped to discover Chicago radio and its excellence after listening to George Harrison's All Things Must Pass, an album which will soon get a blog post of its own...maybe this weekend after I've written my first graded paper, a paper apparently very few do well on. All I can say is, I didn't come here to do something easy. (And last night, four very tired souls--myself, Peter, Erik, and Ashley--watched the Twilight Zone where a horribly overacting William Shatner becomes obsessed with a penny fortune-telling machine in the Ohio countryside...just what we needed.)


Two final thoughts today: Marc moved into Ohio State yesterday, and I have wished him well enough in private that he doesn't need another good thought from me in public, so no flowery language here...but we're on parallel paths and it strikes me very hard.


And a few notable names passed away this week, but the one I want to acknowledge is Henry Gibson. Actor of sterling comic timing, clever poet and lyricist, did everything from Laugh-In to Wedding Crashers (as the priest whom Vince Vaughan nearly terrifies with his monologuing), but I'll always remember him for two very different roles. One, the voice of Wilbur in the original Charlotte's Web...a bit of artistry where Wilbur's gentleness, loyalty, and longing all were as deeply felt as in the book. Two, Haven Hamilton in Nashville, the most vain and uncompromising man ever to get a stranglehold on the limelight...and once seen in his lip-smacking worst and final, stunningly noble best, never forgotten.




"If the doctor says you're through, keep a-goin'!


He's a human just like you! Keep a-goin'!"




"Who's the piano player? Frog? He plays like a frog...why couldn't we get Pig?"

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

How I Lost My First Game of Trivial Pursuit in Three Years

Yesterday was a day of traveling afield, seeking out new territories upon which to ask new questions…and failing to conquer an old one.

The day began, as many of my best days usually do, with an immersion in books…our tour of the Regenstein Library, where I discovered the existence of several Trollopian first editions and got to actually touch a William Blake series of engravings of the Book of Job, which coincidentally I am reading right now…what I'll never forget about Blake is a year ago, studying for the GRE, I read several excerpts from Songs of Experience before a shift at Barnes & Noble and spent an hour feeling very depressed, where smiling was an effort…

(Isn't the contrast between "The Lamb" and "The Tyger" overwhelming, that the same all-powerful being who made the gentlest of souls also made that "fearful symmetry?")

Professor Levin is a heck of a lecturer. Unlike Professor Miller, whom he matches in being able to talk for 75 minutes on one subject and sound in control the whole time, he moves around, gets animated, draws comparisons between The Interpretation of Dreams and Taster's Choice commercials…hee…

Then I read my first academic essay on Trollope, Ayelet Ben-Yishai's "The Fact of a Rumor," which established the crucial importance for me of The Eustace Diamonds in the Grand Narrative. The central figures of the Palliser Saga only appear, in her words, as "spectator-commentators," but it is their judgment of Lizzie's scheming which drives the plot onward, and in their reactions, the reader comes to understand the way they think and react to life…it is a case study in their psychology. Understanding this enables us to read the entire Saga in a new light by knowing a little better exactly why the characters behave as they do.

My meeting with Abigail was a bit of a mixed bag. On the one hand, she opened up a whole range of possibilities for me I hadn't considered in terms of my academics. On the other hand, I felt a terrible guilt all through the meeting. She was impressed by how much planning I put into picking courses but was worried I was consigning myself too narrowly, and I suddenly became afraid of being obstinate…she assured me I wasn't, but as my family knows, I find it hard to accept other people's analysis of my behavior. Then, she was running late, and I was her next-to-last meeting before Chelsie, who needed to catch a downtown bus, so my sense of guilt increased. Why, oh why, do I keep feeling a need to assume all the problems in a situation are my fault?

But the night ended well…after a long walk to Treasure Island, I met Karen and Stuart Singerman at their apartment for the first MAPH Board Game Night. Almost twenty of us crammed in and, wanting to interact with more people, I chose the larger table where Apples to Apples and Trivial Pursuit were the battlegrounds of the day. However…not everyone knew about my past television experience. I should have excused myself, but I hadn't played any trivia in months and Trivial Pursuit in particular, such a part of my childhood, in three years (people stopped wanting to play with me after high school), so I couldn't resist. Now Stephen and I SHOULD HAVE WON, but since we had six pie pieces before any other team had two, the rule became that we had to answer every question on the card in the center circle, and we got five…but missed a teaser about bullfighters, so after the time limit ran out the game ended in a draw.

And for all the fun, there was still a lingering unease that I had gotten too showy of myself in front of my new colleagues by doing nothing but playing a game. I never made a point about Jeopardy, but as things unfolded there was an increasing sense of good-natured groaning and accusations that Stephen (a GREAT partner) wasn't doing anything for us (completely untrue). I hate being the center of attention, and I was worried that this would put me in ill-standing. But Matt, who drove me home, told me that if I did stand out, it was with good reason, and I really fit in.

That's what I wanted so badly from this program, to find a community where I could learn from others and be one of a group and not anyone particularly special. And yesterday I had lunch with one set of people, after-class drinks with another, and game night consisted of a completely different third. I've never had so many friends so fast…I love it here.

Only problem with last night? Karen and Stuart (who got engaged when he proposed to her at graduation from Kenyon, an event captured forever in a sweet photograph) were TOO hospitable. They never buy bread, and I'm a sucker for homemade bread, so Karen and I ate a great deal of her two loaves, and there were far too many snacks, and wine, and sherry…let's just say today I was glad to have a good workout.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

A Fire in the Belly and a Bug for the Killing



September 14th was my first official day as a graduate student, and I quickly discovered that whatever was in me from Emerson is far from dead…has only become stronger. My note-taking abilities are sharp, my mind is working overtime, and a lecture yesterday put a fire in my belly, or more appropriately, a dictionary's worth of words on my tongue.


Jeff McMahon, our writing advisor, gave a short talk after Professor Miller's words on Rear Window about "entering the conversation." He told us that if things go the way they should, our core ideas and specialties will remain but the specific questions and answers we ask will change, and they will change as we learn new languages, new concepts, and discover which side of the academic conversation we want to dialogue with. When he finished speaking, two thoughts filled my mind…one, "There's so much I don't know still," and two, "Let's get started knowing it!"


One way to enter the conversation is to keep an open mind to all the different disciplines of humanities, and lately, I have been overhearing some of the friendliest people in MAPH talk about philosophy with more passion than anyone else, and so I sought out several people, paramount among them Bill French, who resembles a British Invasion lead singer and speaks to everyone with unfeigned open acceptance. I told him about my work with Trollope, and he suggested I read Michel Foucault. In Wendy and Sox's course way back when I had read the chapter on the panopticon from Discipline and Punish, but yesterday, after some review of class texts, I read a short book which introduced Foucault's ideas and it made me want to read more. Foucault's major thrust was that human identity is based on us being part of a collective where the life we live is determined by practices and institutions with histories of their own which affect how we think and act, in fact control it through the knowledge arising from practices and the power such knowledge brings…but history is also contingent and not pre-determined, so the optimism of Foucalt (which I had never realized before) is that we can CHANGE who we are by "straying afield" from the notion of who we should be, and such change can only happen in common! Did Obama read Foucault? (By the way, it appears my key text is The History of Sexuality, which deals with ethics and institutional change as much as sex.)


By the way, http://chronicle.com/article/Taking-the-Right-Seriously/48333/ is a GREAT article about the lack of politically-conservative educators in America and new first steps towards inclusion. As a moderate who believes that education is supposed to teach you how to think, I THINK this is long overdue and welcome a range of ideas.


Now, yesterday was not all work and no play. I celebrated my first day of class by cooking a giant pot of jambalaya, subsequently shared with Peter (who loves turkey sausage). We talked more about the class and what courses we hope to take over the next year, and it was nice to sit down one-on-one with someone (especially someone like Peter) after a long day of one-way dialogue. I also killed bugs…we have windows and fans open and running because no matter how pleasant it gets outside, the apartment is STEAMING to a degree, and the bugs fly in…but they're so slow in Illinois I can grab them in my hand and crush them…and Peter's friend Maggie, also a Vassar graduate, is crashing with us while she looks for a new apartment…she's moving to Chicago to teach (I expressed my admiration) but took the wrong bus and in her words "ended up in a scene from The Wire."


I have a lot to do today, including reading some of the current conversations about Trollope through literary journals…another great way to enter the conversation as I learn exactly WHAT the conversation is and what terms they're framing it in…but to wrap up…for now…I want to direct everyone's attention to Color Me Veggie at http://colormeveggie.blogspot.com/, where Lisa Huberman shares her vegetarian cooking adventures…read it now before she gets too busy taking the theatrical world by storm…and a prayer for a peaceful rest for Norman Bourlag, the Nobel Peace Prize winner whose work on farming was decried by environmentalists but saved the lives of countless millions, and who died at 96 still trying to feed Africa…and why have I been listening to "The Dirty Jobs" from Quadrophenia over and over?

Monday, September 14, 2009

A Guest Thought From Charles Schuling Concerning "Abbey Road"

Every time I hear the end of "I Want You (She's So Heavy)" I feel like something has been taken from me. I want it back. Then "Here Comes The Sun" starts the B Side, and its such a contrast, and I feel at ease once again. A metaphor that comes to mind would be like dropping your keys near a sewer grate. And for the one second that they are falling you think, "Fuck, they are going to fall right through that grate. What am I going to do without my keys? I need my keys." and then they land safely right next to the grate and you can just pick them up again and keep on walking...

Hyde Park in the Moonlight

The quadrangles take on a different air when dusk sets in, flowers and trees and freshly paved paths casting streetlit shadows or morphing from green to black with the coming darkness. They tell us it isn't safe, but if you have company, it's beautiful to walk around.

Saturday night I cut through the newly landscaped main quad to return to Jimmy's Woodlawn Tap for a "Last Night of the Summer" beer with the group. It reconfirmed my attitude towards bars: they're loud. So loud that I have to speak up and keep my ears firmly attuned to hear, and this after mastering the art of keeping my voice level all summer! It also reconfirmed my almost-forgotten attitude towards Pilsner Urquell: one of the best beers on the planet. (Old Style, as Marc would say, is just a PBR variation and not a good one at that...sorry Chicago.)

But I go to bars not necessarily for the atmosphere or the beer but for the conversation, and a completely different bunch was there for the second get-together. Peter came by, which was terrific, but I also met Karen, who lives in our building (the only other one so far and who moved in yesterday...not the Karen who resembles Lisa and will run board game night but a short blonde who reminds me physically of Diana Santangelo, BHS Orchestra Concertmaster)...and Bailey, who triple-majored in English, Japanese and Film, once interned for some of the greatest magazines on Earth, and who lights up when you tell her you got to meet Werner Herzog. And there were reacquaintances with Phil the talkative philosopher, Jamie, the gentle giant of a historian who went downtown with Julie and I back in April, and Davis, the cinematic man who loves good music.

And yesterday, after I took a walk to Promentory Point and read the Letter to the Romans in an essential bit of soul-searching which left me with much peace of mind, I had my first MAPH event: the barbecue and picnic. Now, the only problem here was that I had so many people I wanted to have conversations with and so little time (could have kept it going at Jimmy's afterwards, but saving my money and have little inclination for more to drink after a heavy meal). But I WAS able to meet Abigail Zitin, my preceptor, who has absolutely NO stuffiness and is great to talk to, and I re-met all the program heads...Professor Levin now has a beard, but Professor Miller still looks like Gary Sinise...and Lindsey, the big-hearted social services worker...who distinctly remembered our talk from Campus Days as much as I did (and like Danny found me on YouTube). There were more hellos, more spouses and significant others, a great Hitchcock movie (Oh Grace Kelly...), and enough pork, beef, coleslaw, baked beans, and barbecue sauce and cornbread and wine to feed a Napoleonic brigade. We shall definitely be marching on our stomachs today for the first lecture.

So the last thing to ponder as day starts to break over Hyde Park...WHY is my Internet suddenly working better after Peter and I plunk down $80 for a modem and $20 a month for access? Ah, well, better safe than sorry...

Sunday, September 13, 2009

A Prayer by the Writer for His First Day of Graduate School, September 13, 2009

God,

Bless my parents, my brother, and all my relatives, Rostan and Kacenga.

Bless my dear friends, spread here, there, and everywhere.

Bless all the people in the world whom I care about, and all those I would care about if I only knew them.

Bless all afflicted by the evils of humanity, that one day they may be comforted and troubled no more.

Bless all who practice the evils of humanity, that they may experience repentance or divine justice.

Bless all who create, inspire, and instruct in hopes of bringing a society into being which is truly part of the kingdom.

And I humbly ask of you that my mind stay disciplined, focused, and open to all ideas, that my body remain strong to support me through the work ahead, that my heart be full of love and peace and empathy for my newfound partners in this great endeavor and cohabitors of this wonderful city, and that my reverence for You and Your righteousness and eternal plan remain paramount in my mind as I strive towards fusing the best of this temporal world together.

I humbly ask of you that for the next ten months, and all my days beyond then, I shall each day perform works in accordance with your faith to serve your other children.

And I humbly, meekly ask of you to bless my tiny little soul as I find my true self and my way on Your many paths.

In gratitude for the innumerable, undeserved blessings You have already bestowed upon me…

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit…

Amen.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

The Coming of Mr. Gaffney, or, Andrew’s First Trip to Costco

My apartment is now the way it was always meant to be. You can tell by the oscillating fan in my bedroom, the year's supply of toilet paper in the closet, the newly-expanded quantities of coffee, soup, and pasta…and most of all by Peter Gaffney, Vassar '08, sleeping in the room across the hall.

Peter showed up at 11:30, a tall, thin, but very well-built man with a fine pair of glasses: sharp, brown-rimmed, angular, but still fitting the contours of his face. We'd had three conversations over the phone, and I quickly learned the laid-back demeanor of his cellular presence equaled the friendliness of his being here in the flesh…and, like when Paul came to our first apartment in May 2007, or when I left Burbank for Big Pink, it was a great relief and comfort not to be alone anymore. In fact, I'm not alone in a double sense. It turns out Peter and I both have the one-time Oxford English Dictionary American-edition employee Abigail Zitin as our preceptor. Can't wait to meet her tomorrow…and everyone else!

Peter's mother helped him move in…a very attractive art teacher who has now sent three children off to college. She is NOT like my mother in that her whirlwind of energy never eases into a breeze. And yesterday was the sort of day you needed energy, and the senior Gaffney was lucky to have it, as well as the patience of a saint.

Peter also had a minivan, but only two large suitcases and two heavy coats. After these were dropped off (and both my new acquaintances viewed the apartment) and he signed the lease (half his keys don't work) we made tracks for Target at Marquette and 81st Street. WHOLE OTHER WORLD. Except for one megachurch, every building was careworn, and most very garish, and drivers cut across lanes and people ran through the streets with little regard. It was like being back on Western Avenue, only even more in-your-face. Then at Target, we were the only white people in the store…not that this mattered, but after the multicultural Targets of Los Angeles it was a bit unnerving being in the minority. Picked up lots of good stuff at great prices, including the fan.

After we both installed fans and he put sheets on the bed, late lunch at Potbelly, where you apparently have to ask for vegetables on your healthy Mushroom Melt. Then came Costco, and unfortunately our moving locations to 55th Street had the Garmin convinced that the best way to get there was on the freeway. At 4:00 on a Friday.

The alternate route we took after fifteen minutes idling along sent us through neighborhoods in Chicago I'd never seen before and will probably never see again, streets of Hispanic businesses and massive schools (including the Miles Davis Academy) and abandoned buildings with propped up mattresses instead of glass in the windows and forlorn industrial plants recalling Youngstown and Detroit…between that and the salsa stations we'd find as Peter scanned the radio, it was Los Angeles déjà vu.

And out of nowhere, a row of one big-box store after another. Costco (which I'd been to once before in Marina Del Rey but did not purchase anything from) is Sam's Club on an even more extravagant scale, with everything you could ever want apart from Ramen noodles. Turns out Peter loves to cook as much as I do, so we acquired eggs, chicken tenderloins, and the aforementioned other provisions as we pushed the cart through one aisle after another.

Unsurprisingly, the route home took us back in a much more direct manner not involving freeways. And I had time to unwind with a few drinks (only one non-alcoholic), a book about Trollope, the comforting news I can get into the first major Victorian course of the year AND read Vanity Fair again in the process, and a nice late-night chat, the first of what will probably be many, with Mr. Gaffney as we tried to force his keys to do what they were intended for but inclined against, got his e-mail worked up, and talked about the things we loved…including how happy we are to be here.

Friday, September 11, 2009

Return to the MAPH 100

Wearing my striped PGA shirt, Old Navy khakis, and fedora, I walk over to the Starbucks at 55th and Woodlawn and meet Raff, philosophy major born and raised in Pittsburgh, getting off the bus. As we walk in, I suddenly realize that a little coffee shop would have been great for a meeting for two, but…an unestimable number is rather different. Then, as more of us wander in, it turns out there's a picnic bench in the back, and people are there reading Freud, Mika in charge already.

Three hours later, we've held a mini-Campus Days for about one-third of the program. I'm reacquainted with Danny, the personable Bostonian with slicked hair who acts like life is a giant stand-up routine…and who remembers our conversation regarding Boswell from all those months ago, which makes me that much more delighted to see him again…and Julie, as kind and winning and quietly knowing and supportive as ever. And I meet and re-meet people, many of whom were surprisingly NOT here back in April, and we trade academic stories and miscellany and thoughts on Obama's health-insurance plan and frustrations with Freud. I drink a coffee Frappucino light and meet Bill, who wears a cool tie, Karen, who reminds me of Lisa and loves James Joyce and has a sick husband, Abby, a dancer from KENT, Pete, who's never missed an episode of Lost, Artemis, a Brooklynite whose age I don't know but who cheerfully admits to being the eldest in the group, and even Amelia from Austin Texas, who looks nothing like my creation and lives in a basement apartment with her fiancé and two dogs, and Anna who makes every sentence seem like the funniest thing ever…I could go on…

A detour to show people around and talk ethics with Raff, and then five of us take the Metra to Van Buren. Julie and I laugh about how every time we meet up in Chicago we travel together. Joining us this time, and taking the permanent place of Katharine who won a fellowship to stay in Iowa…congratulations and I'll miss you!...are Alex from Michigan and Bowling Green (!), film, Jess from Minnesota, feminist theory, and Ashley, also from Austin, English and dance. Both Jess and Ashley are redheads, and Ashley looks like Nicole Kidman in Practical Magic, so they and Julie make good company…although I talk to Alex about film most of the way on the train.

The Art Institute of Chicago's free Thursdays are beautifully packed, and we see the modern and Impressionist galleries over 100 lovely minutes. Nighthawks. American Gothic. Sunday Afternoon on the Island of Le Grand Jatte. A room full of Monets I'll be coming back to in winter. And in an exhibit which would have delighted my Mom and Dad and is just about to close, a history of wine storage and glassware with accompanying art from the Greeks to the Dutch masters to Hogarth to Neiman. Casks, 18th-century bottles, urns, the most beautiful punch bowls and ewers I've ever seen, the greatest Murano and Morani there is, and an astounding all-glass still life of a table full of spillage. I don't even get back to the Thorpe Miniature Rooms but we have a great time. Julie is the most passionate art lover I've been to a museum with thus far…she keeps falling behind the rest of us as different things transfix her, and Ashley and Jess love Monet and company as much as I do.

By now we're starving, and we're a few short blocks from the Berghoff, the 100 year-old restaurant which is just a little pricy but we figure we'll splurge one night. We toast to the year with water and Pepsi and talk about what classes will be like, what the future will be like, what we know we can do. Judging that cooking with your own beer will be a good sign, I have an excellent, just-the-right-amount battered cod with sweet potato fries and fruit coleslaw. Ashley is a vegetarian and she is the last to finish a delectable Iceberg wedge. I clue the others in to the books on sale at the store, but over a back-to-the-Metra talk about bridge and mah jong and Texas Hold 'Em, I look at the programs in Alex's hand and realize I left them and the hat under my seat. We retrieve them and nobody cares…but we miss the train by a minute and have to wait forty for the next one, passing the time by discussing movie musicals and the hauntingness of Cabaret in a slowly-filling station.

On the train back to Hyde Park, a giant black man sees me, waves, and makes his way next to us, so I spend ten minutes having my hand vigorously shaken by Lamont from Ivanhoe as he shares that he's going home to smoke a blunt while watching the porn tapes he got for his birthday! And he has Old Country Buffet coupons!

Jess lives near me, so I walk her home under the moonlit Hyde Park night, keeping on her purse side the way Mommy told me, both of us gently reassured by a fine day and night of friendship that we did the right thing in coming here.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

I Am Fifth: The Chicago Diary of Andrew J. Rostan Begins Today...


Yesterday I was talking to my parents on the phone, and they commented how my essay on Johnson (just finished!) was really something but they couldn't finish it...they like it when I talk a little more about myself. And I thought, "everybody from Los Angeles would probably agree..."


So even though I am going to keep posting my essays and deepest literary thoughts here, the kind which make you want to write something down right away and nearly miss church in the process, and WILL resume Nabokov one of these days, I am going to be devoting a lot more time to sharing the events, triumphs, foibles, and lessons learned in my life here.


"I Am Fifth" is the perspective from which I'm approaching this chronicle, and it comes from, surprise, a book I remember seeing on our little corner shelf in the old Tam-O-Shanter house when I was in elementary school, my father's copy of "I Am Third" by one of Chicago's own, Gale Sayers, who was ranking where he placed himself on the level of importance in his own life.


For me, as I wandered through the moonlit corridors of University Avenue and 55th Street last night, the answers came suddenly and easily...in the way I want to try to be...


God, Christ, and my commitment to a better world for all the children of the kingdom are first.

My family, who gave me life and give me unconditional love, is second.

My friends, including my colleagues in MAPH and my teachers, all the people who have and will wield influence over my temporal existence, are third.

Books, literature, and a commitment to and reverence for the artistic and human world, are fourth.

I am fifth.


(And by the way, knowing where you stand keeps things in perspective...like when handled an attempted break-in at my apartment with equanimity, made easier by considering I have absolutely nothing worth stealing.)


So get ready for adventure, romance, passion, thrills, and lots of books!


(Boy, that sounded like a corny graduate student thing to say, but it's my blog. :)

Epilogue: “Now Rising Fortune ELEVATES His Mind…He Shines Unclouded, and Adorns Mankind”

Many people I have spoken to regarding the graduate school experience refer to studying the humanities, or anything else, as joining in an eternal conversation. In my lifetime, it shall be a privilege to say what I feel is worth saying, then leave behind words for others to respond to.

Today, as a postscript to my piece on Samuel Johnson, Richard Savage, and Sigmund Freud, I want to add in some things which struck me in a sort of live-blogging format while reading an entire book on the same subject…which never mentions Freud once. In 1993, the great historian and literature expert Richard Holmes devoted over 200 pages to the case of Dr. Johnson and Mr. Savage (What a great title!), and in homage to this superior figure, I offer some thoughts of my own, as I recently did with Nabokov. (And yes, the commentary will resume, but if you asked me when, I'd have to say around the same time Hollywood shoots A Confederacy of Dunces.)

Prologue: Johnson used seven excerpts from Savage's poetry to illustrate the definitions of his Dictionary. The words were "elevate," "expanse," "fondly," "lone," "squander," "sterilise," and "suicide." A combination which suggests someone warmly regarding someone else who managed to touch their life for the better before a tragic end.

Death: Holmes points out on 10 that Johnson did not put his name to any publications until 1749 and "The Vanity of Human Wishes." An Account of the Life of Mr. Richard Savage and "London" were as anonymous as his political reportage and pamphlets. Holmes imagines on 10-13 that if Johnson had died at Savage's age, "Wishes" on the market but the complete Dictionary still a beacon in the distance, he would have been even more obscure, certainly less celebrated. When Johnson writes with sympathy about the composite figure of Savage, he is writing of a person leading a life of unquiet desperation, worried he may die without ever making his mark on the world. Perceived desperation, as Freud would agree, drives people to extremes, and gives root to Savage's paranoid hatred as people in his station were succeeding while he kept failing. Johnson had to have grasped this, and thus comes his sympathy for Savage.

Love: Holmes delineates in this chapter the side of Johnson which Boswell, in his father-figure worship, deliberately obscured in his biography, as I discovered in my research to compose my application essay: Johnson was a deeply romantic man, a Cyrano de Bergerac whose ungainly body and physical tics made him despair of finding a woman to love, but did not keep him from engaging in many passions for many young, beautiful girls, in what poet and amateur Johnsoniana collector Anna Seward, whom Boswell tried to ignore in his research, described as "always fancying himself in love with some princess or other." (21) Boswell mentions Johnson's passion for Olivia Lloyd, but glides over his love and subsequent lifelong friendship with Lucy Porter, whose mother he married. (23-26) Holmes dates the period of Johnson and Savage's closest intimacy to 1737-1739 (28), during which time Johnson and Elisabeth were living separately in London. (27) Following Savage's Welsh retreat, Johnson fell in love with Molly Aston, a titled lover of literature to whom he wrote poetry, spent at least one passionate evening with, and actually deferred to the opinions of! (28-29) By the time he wrote Savage, all of this was behind him, and Elisabeth was an overweight, disagreeable alcoholic…Holmes suggests he mainly married her for her fortune so he could launch himself as a teacher. (26) Boswell did depict with perfect accuracy Johnson's closeness and devotion to his friends, Savage being one…how much more intimate were these friendships when Johnson was, as during his years knowing Savage, subjected to unrequited love in his sexual prime while married to an aged shrew who had to have frustrated his capacities? Freud's theories claim that the empathy resulting from Oedipus resolution is also based in an innate bisexuality stemming from identification…in Johnson seeing a man as lonely as himself in Savage, the depth of feeling in such a bond may have approached the passionate, and Johnson's biography of his friend certainly reaches ecstatic highs.

Night: The subject of Johnson and Savage's nighttime excursions through London is described in four different ways. Boswell felt Johnson and Savage engaged in East End literary talk (36), Johnson gaining inspiration for his essays and biographies. Sir Joshua Reynolds and Arthur Murphy placed them in the West End, two dissolute friends dreaming giant dreams of reforming the Walpole-Hanover political system. (37-42) Sir John Hawkins agrees the conversation was political, but writes with bitterness and suspicion that the duo were engaging in serious, seditious discourse. (43-44) And Johnson himself claimed that Savage was forced to live this way for most of his final decade, his opinions banishing him to the outskirts of society. (49-51) The great deed Holmes does in this chapter is to quote Savage's poem on public works (47-48), which reveals that his sympathy for colonies paled next to its root cause: his anger at the "great" societies which oppressed and exploited them. The conclusion here is that we had a young admirer with an empathetic superego listening to the endless, loquacious philosophies of an older man whose constantly frustrated id caused him to see the majority of the world as an oppressive place. Johnson's feelings for Savage, already elevated, would have been pushed to pathos seeing a man of intelligence forced to expand on his philosophies at night in the lowest companies. Small wonder that Johnson felt compelled in later talk with friends to pass this off as humor, using his gift for language to make the literary man, the artist, and the light comic playwright see this episode according to their own views. Only Hawkins, who really knew Johnson at this youngest age, was not entirely fooled.

Mother: Holmes shares my basic view of Countess Anne Macclesfield as a transformed figure and Savage as her threatening persecutor. This chapter expands on both those views. Two points stand out: first, the actual distress Anne had in her marriage to Macclesfield (59-60), which in my opinion would have increased her determination to separate herself from Savage: she was a passionate woman married to an alcoholic brute who fell in love with Rivers, a gambling addict, and gave birth to two children who died in childbirth. Her subsequent life was much happier by comparison, and Savage using his poetry to bring that to mind over and over again would have been unwelcome. Second, Holmes believes Savage's mentor Aaron Hill, the writer and publisher, encouraged his protégé to air his scandalous tale in the press for both attention and more financial success on top of the profitable Overbury. (81-82) Recalling how Pope was able to get Savage to do what his friends wanted through an appeal to his vanity, Savage's exhibitionist tendencies and determination to be heard met a dangerous match in Hill, who recognized the 18th-Century public's taste for lurid roman a clef and now had a talented young writer with whom he could exploit this. Savage, swayed by his id, would not have cared as to how well-advised this course of action really was, as it most likely fueled his mania.

Bard: On pages 83 through 99 Holmes covers a portion of Savage's life Johnson skipped over, in between Overbury and the murder trial, when he was composing "The Wanderer" among other things. This is a side of Savage never even hinted at, friends with pastoral poet James Thomson and other leading intellectuals (including Pope), wealthy enough to go back and forth between London and a nice home in Richmond to write "The Wanderer," and financially in good shape thanks to the success of Miscellaneous Poems, a compendium of different poets associated with Aaron Hill which attracted noble subscribers. Savage also found the time to pen an elaborate castigation of Anne Macclesfield with deliberate malicious calculation. It is unsurprising why Johnson omitted this from Savage, or at least tried to, for with all the emphasis on the starving London poet, an undercurrent throughout Johnson's biography is Savage as charlatan, using his sad story and tastes for poetry and conversation to worm his way into the affections of the powerful and take to sponging, a talent for which his id would have had no qualms. How would his ploy, and Johnson's identifying image of him, have worked if he was better off and more at leisure than others suspected and writing against Macclesfield not out of desperation but out of deliberate effect? Johnson had the evidence, Holmes asserts (91), but to include it would have contradicted Savage's equivalency with Johnson as an unsuccessful, oppressed writer…a successful Savage who at least for a time showed that sinfulness and instinctual living paid would have doomed Johnson's catharsis, for what argument could he have made for changing his behavior if Savage had gotten away with it?

Murder: Holmes takes serious issue with how Johnson obscured the murder charges, and his description of the trial, while initially impartial, devolves into "an outright attack on the prosecution witnesses." (108) Johnson's motivation for doing so is their station as employees and customers at what was (known to Savage) a brothel. (104) If Savage is really Johnson's attempt at his public apology and exorcism for his sins, then from Holmes's second chapter it is clearer than ever his deepest sin was his tendency to sexually dally and engage in at least emotional infidelity. Prostitutes are his nemesis and antithesis, and identifying them with the media for his transgressions, he is for once able to transform his self-hatred into hatred for his "accomplices" in the sexual act…otherwise, again, the whole plan falls apart. The evidence also makes it clear that Savage, possibly heady with his newfound literary fame and recent attack on Macclesfield, provoked the affair by claiming privileges of noble station to occupy private rooms in the brothel against the wishes of the staff. (105-106) Johnson had no record of either Savage's closing oration (116) or Page's summation (119) and so, in falsification, put words in their mouths in the manner he used to cover Parliament for the Gentleman's Magazine    (116), which contradicts his assertion of the truth of the biography, of course (116), but is essential for his purpose. In Johnson's interpretation, the trial was where Savage made a stand to determine his own identity after years without the parentage to give him one, and took the first step on his unhappy road to self-destruction at the same time he had his great, all-but-theatrical success. Johnson NEEDED to put something down, and he was intimate enough with Savage to copy his style. Likewise, Page stands in for the world which is out to get Savage, and must have a voice as well as the primary figure who refuses to understand.

Holmes examines all the evidence himself and comes to the conclusion that James Gregory and William Merchant, Savage's two friends, provoked the quarrel and that Savage did kill James Sinclair only when he saw Sinclair advance on the weaponless Gregory…otherwise, he was literally dumbstruck (in all likelihood under the influence) by the turn of events. (125-126) However, Savage, believing still in his superiority, prejudiced the jury against him by talking over everyone at the trial and refusing to obey court protocol, suggesting a violent character (119) but more likely reflecting Savage's psychic drive to be noticed. When Johnson writes of the plea for mercy, Macclesfield's influence, and the ultimate pardon, he was working from information supplied by Savage himself, who saw another opportunity to slander Macclesfield and "for obvious reasons…preferred to boast of the distinguished and literary Lady Hertford" (129) as the prime force behind his salvation when really Aaron Hill had "organised the whole appeal" (129) and prompted Tyrconnel to take charge (127-130), the man with whom Savage would ultimately strive to dissociate himself from. Holmes chalks the account in Savage up to Johnson's "enormous loyalty and moral generosity" (131) and moving "refusal to abandon faith in Savage." (132) "What kind of man could inspire this sort of loyalty?" (132) Holmes asks. The kind of man whom Johnson saw as a few bad decisions away from becoming himself and so turned into a hybrid of souls for the biography. If Savage was condemned by circumstances,. So too would Johnson be. An innocent Savage meant that Johnson had hope for saving of his own.

Fame: This is Holmes's longest chapter, and it generates some insight into the psychology of Johnson and Savage:

After the trial, Savage finally published "The Wanderer," and this poem, which Holmes acknowledges as "an extraordinary work" (151), was most likely what made Johnson seek Savage out. As the story of Savage's links to Thomson, Hill, and Pope implies, there were plenty of established poets and publishers who would have willingly been a mentor and friend in their community to tyros. Johnson had his pick, and he chose a man whose view of a world possessing "an active cruelty pulsing through the material of being" (153) but also the "possibility of spiritual triumph" (154) and the "positive…companionship in suffering, the intimacy of talk, the consolation and confession" (154), views so similar to what Johnson would depict in his essays and Rasselas (154), suggested a kindred spirit. So Johnson's identification of Savage came not from shared circumstance alone, but a shared philosophy.

While Johnson implied "The Bastard" was not published until 1735, Holmes's research reveals it came out BEFORE "The Wanderer" in 1728, after the trial. (137) Johnson obscured this fact so as to make Savage's publication seem like an act of desperation after losing his position with Tyrconnel instead of a cruel masterstroke against Macclesfield. This writer is surprised that Johnson picked this as a dramatic retelling of events, for if Macclesfield represented the worst of the id in Savage/Johnson, it would make sense to keep the true publication date as the id laughingly victorious over Macclesfield's alleged persecution during the trial.

Holmes also muses on why Lord Tyrconnel would have become Savage's patron, helping him secure what would have been in 1993 30,000 pounds a year (144), if not to keep him from attacking Macclesfield. Apparently, Tyrconnel was an art lover who felt Savage had great promise, and Savage also was there as a friend and consoler during the final illness and death of Tyrconnel's beloved wife Belinda. (142-144) It was Belinda to whom Savage dedicated "The Triumph of Health and Mirth" (144), though this display again feels like Savage the charming charlatan.

Except for his work as the "volunteer laureate," Savage did not publish between 1730's The Author to be Let and 1735's "The Progress of a Divine." With his "laureate" patronage he had no reason to, and here Holmes finds himself in psychological accord with Johnson: Savage's success would not last because of his id's jealous, tempestuous desire to put down the people he saw himself as equal to or better than (157-158), and "Divine" was his way of putting himself back into the scene after the final break with Tyrconnel, whose patronage he repaid with insults. (158-159)

The end of the chapter points to why Savage went out of his way to befriend Johnson. My guess from the original essay that Savage saw both an admiring fan and a potential victim comes out stronger in the former. "Divine" made Savage infamous, and his combative poetry made his friends abandon him rather than risk being on his abusive, profligate side. (163) Savage, already ill (165), had to recognize with his one bit of common sense that with even Hill withdrawing his original championship (169-170), he needed a friend.

Friendship: Page 173 is Holmes restating my case, but since his analysis is one purely based on the primary texts, he does not distinguish the complement of Savage's id and Johnson's superego, though he hints at it in touching on Johnson's "naïve romanticism and his extraordinary commitment to the fate of an outcast writer." (173) Holmes proposes the two of them met through their joint employment by Edward Cave (177), and this is where the circumstantial identification can be made: two writers doing hackwork and striving for more. However, Savage was already on the way down, and recognized Johnson was on the way up…here may be why Savage imparted so much to Johnson, seeing him as a future literary star and, again, a potential patron. Savage was undoubtedly the inspiration for Johnson's first major work, "London," a poem whose central figure is reminiscent of Savage's language and philosophy (179), and Holmes uses this link between the two to explain why Johnson carried on such devotion to Savage: "Johnson was keeping faith with the man he knew Savage might have been [the spirit from their nighttime walks]; and more than this, with the man Savage wanted him to be in the future." (183) In non-Freudian terms, this is again my thesis: Johnson saw himself the psychological equivalent of Savage and needed to separate that part of his personality to find lasting happiness and success. Holmes also reveals from numerous pieces of documentation that Savage did not tell Johnson about all of his friends, that in all likelihood he "kept his friends in separate compartments…and rarely let one supporter know what the other was doing for him." (186) Here again is Savage the charlatan with his self-centered id…in his desire for others to take care of him he could easily pass himself off to Johnson as the destitute voice of London while keeping up a country life with James Thomson at Richmond. (190) In the end, Johnson recognized Savage's many failings, his ingratitude and inability to face reality, but his intelligence and search for virtue led him to finally judge Savage as having a "moral meaning" to his "existence" which "lay in the capacity of even a flawed man to struggle nobly against the misfortunes of life." (194) One might add, "even when such misfortunes are brought about by one's self." Or that this was how Johnson saw his own existence, trying to overcome his self-perceived defects to achieve a place in God's kingdom. Johnson also rearranged the chronology of Savage's last letter to Tyrconnel: instead of coming from his retreat to Wales and thereby representing his explosion of egotistic will, it was actually written before he left London (199) as part of Pope's money-raising scheme. Again, dramatically viable, and the principle of Savage's angry rejection of his betters still holds. Finally, Holmes points out one final reason Johnson had to memorialize Savage, whom he never saw again after the Welsh departure: guilt. Johnson had given the protagonist of "London" a vision of setting up a peaceful, reflective existence in a country Arcadia, and Savage, who of course recognized the link between the poem and himself, became intoxicated with the vision and argued against Johnson's growing misgivings. (204) In Wales and Bristol, Savage's id and lifeforce would be shattered by the supplication to others he faced. Johnson, with his naturally strong guilt, might have felt he had all but killed his friend.

Arcadia: Johnson fails to mention that Savage left Wales not out of impecunity but because he was rejected by a beautiful widow, Bridget Jones, to whom he wrote several poems (211-213), and that Savage deliberately obscured the truth of his incarceration from Pope so that he might use several different schemes to get money from his friends. (221-222) Savage having hope and calculation still detracts from a Savage who was taking the final steps down the spiral, climaxing in Pope finally rejecting him. It implies he never felt the full punishment for his actions which Johnson wanted him to feel. Holmes adds to this by finding that Johnson's condemnation of Savage in the final paragraph was added later when he realized he had to draw a strong moral lesson for readers (226-227), this being before his commitment to truth in biography from his great literary essays. That no one could "easily presume to say, 'Had I been in Savage's condition, I should have lived, or written, better than Savage,'" (227), was his original wrap-up. Johnson's catharsis would have been greater without drawing lines in the sand, if he had kept himself on Savage's level than hinting at superiority.

Charon: This writer cannot end these musings any better than Holmes's description of how Johnson made biography a viable literary art form in Savage for asking new questions, the questions which shape the Johnson-Savage bond: "How far can we learn from someone else's struggles about the conditions of our own; what do the intimate circumstances of one particular life tell us about human nature in general?" (231)

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Concerning John O'Hara


The epilogue to that mammoth Labor Day post (and whoever has read it, I thank you humbly and sincerely...I spent six hours in my room writing it on Labor Day, so it means a lot that you stuck through it) will be forthcoming, and from then on my outside-of-class faculties will be devoted to Anthony Trollope. I wonder if I can get a clock put on hear ticking down to April 24, 2015, the Trollope Bicentennial, at which point I want to have the first draft (at least) of a book or dissertation ready to go. As the Grand Victorian would have said, "Excelsior!"


But today, in response to one last bit of pleasure reading, much needed after some very stressful doings so far this week, I want to talk about a great American author...and hopefully clue in my new MAPH friends studying literature and such if they haven't fully experienced him yet.


That bit of pleasure reading was Geoffrey Woolf's The Art of Burning Bridges: A Life of John O'Hara (2003).


I first heard of O'Hara in passing in my movie history books...Elizabeth Taylor won her first Oscar for the somewhat atrocious film version of BUtterfield 8...but my real experience was in the fall and winter of '05. Having perused the Modern Library's Top 100 list, I noticed him at #22 with a book called Appointment in Samarra. And when I should have been editing my Film II project, my head was focused elsewhere on the self-destruction of Julian English.


The personal pleasure of Appointment in Samarra came in how O'Hara created the same effects as in The Great Gatsby (my all-time favorite novel, if you didn't know already) using a completely different technique. Both stories are about a well-to-do man, one firmly in the Twenties at their most Roaring, the other lucky enough to be financially secure in 1930 as the Depression sweeps in, who (SPOILER ALERT) suffer and ultimately die due to their inner impulses, Jay Gatsby from his hopeless love, Julian English from his breaking society's codes. The difference is that Fitzgerald (whom O'Hara idolized) focused his story on seven people and conveyed their ambiguous pyschic states with poetic language and an intricate approach to time and structure which gives the story and its themes an enduring timelessness...the fact that it is set in the early twenties doesn't seem to matter. Fitzgerald's intense emotional explorations of Gatsby's idealism, Daisy's thoughtlessness, Tom's brutality, Nick's striving for the truth, are all traits we see in others today, we see in ourselves today. Thus the novel lasts, and always will last. But while Fitzgerald used the gentle strokes of Pisarro, O'Hara went for the intense realism of Canalletto crossed with the Dutch Masters. Appointment is firmly rooted in its time and place, with an entire world of characters who would, in Trollopian manner, reoccur through another thirty-five years of fiction, each one described with details piling up on details of food, drink, clothing, transportation, American society in general. Julian and Caroline English's tragedy is a particular tragedy which could only have happened in a particular town, O'Hara's personal fiefdom of Gibbsville, Pennsylvania (really Pottsville), but O'Hara's straightforward writing and lavishing of characteristics, mannerisms, and top-flight dialogue on every person and place and object puts a reader so firmly into the world that we are unable to leave it so easily...we feel Julian and Caroline's pain and heartbreak and loss as intensely as we would feel our own decline in life. And like any great novelist, O'Hara still works in a universal theme: a lifelong preoccupation with the manners and attitudes of any society where privilege exists, and how these societies destroy people either through crushing their aspirations or corroding them from within.


O'Hara was a man of aspirations, a man stifled by his hometown (which Woolf aptly describes as a pretentious city whose reason for being--the power of coal--was swiftly passing it by even during O'Hara's youth) and rankled by his inability to attend Yale, let alone any college. So much of his life was spent chasing his dreams and lashing out at those he thought would obstruct him. He verbally quarreled with almsot everyone he ever met (especially at The New Yorker, which published 250 of his works), drank as if he had two hollow legs, held fast to prejudices, picked fights with anybody (including women and midgets), and was a shameless self-promoter who lobbied for the Nobel Prize and honorary degrees. Even fulfilling his aspirations (the musical Pal Joey, based on his stories, set him up for life) didn't help, for following his Broadway triumph he devoted himself to writing more novels, all of them bestsellers, most of them terrible.


I should know, because I read the (amazingly) National Book Award-winning Ten North Frederick and his other heavyweights during my last year of college and first year in Los Angeles...for they have one intoxicating power beyond their near-pointless, careworn themes and disturbing obsession with every form of sex possible. If only through his social documentation, O'Hara firmly situates his readers in his world, conuring up details and thought processes until you can't tell where reality ends and O'Hara begins. I should knowm, for during that time I made my first and only attempt to write a novel. My goal was to combine the social chronicling of Trollope, the exciting plotting of Agatha Christie, and, yes, the romanticism of Fitzgerald. 594 pages and one "The End" later, I ended up with a John O'Hara novel, an episodic, meandering tome with annoying characters who barely learned anything and cheap shock value. I tossed it before I left L.A.


And yet, O'Hara MATTERS, because if he was only a one-great-shot as a novelist, he was arguably the GREATEST American short story writer ever, and only a few figures in world literature, the peerless Borges above all, top him. Reading O'Hara's short stories, some packed into a few spirit-taxing pages ("How Can I Tell You?," "The Cellar Domain"), others more extended but, unlike the novels, knowing just what to tell and where to stop, is to be dropped into explorations of humanity few writers are capable of. O'Hara put his details and ear for dialogue to their best work, capturing every nuance of a person's choices and desires, leading up to one moment where an action occurs, sometimes only a misspoken sentence, which from that tiny instant onward alters the protagonist's life forever. O'Hara in the short stories is less meandering than Fitzgerald, more fully-formed than Hemingway, more accessible than O'Connor, and more intelligible than while keeping the unskimping power of Salinger. Only Raymond Carver, whom Woolf acknowledges as a great follower, can match O'Hara for the devastating power of little things. But O'Hara...forgive me...uses language even better than Carver. Any serious student of American Literature, I feel, must read Appointment, but also cannot overlook "The Doctor's Son," "Imagine Kissing Pete," "Andrea," and others.


Reading Woolf's biography was a joy for me, not only because he writes in a fluid style peppered with asides and commentary on the elusive art of life-writing itself, but also because he firmly captures the arc of O'Hara's life. Like so many of my heroes, I discovered, O'Hara was a man transformed by love: his adoring second wife Belle, his gentle third wife whom he married after Belle dies of a heart condition, and his daughter Wiley, his only child. In his devotion to them O'hara quit drinking, settled in Princeton, and, if never mellowing, at least being more and more a great American man of letters. Whatever bridges he burned, he left an enduring, towering mounment in this country's literary pantheon.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Endnotes

Endnotes


 

  1. James Boswell, The Life of Samuel Johnson, ed. David Womersely (London: Penguin Classics, 2008), 93-95.
  2. Samuel Johnson, Selected Writings, introduced and ed. Patrick Cruttwell (London: Penguin Classics, 1968), 14.
  3. Johnson 51-52.
  4. Johnson 53.
  5. Johnson 55.
  6. Sigmund Freud, The Ego and the Id, trans. Joan Riviere, ed. James Strachey (New York: Norton, 1960), 11-25
  7. Freud 24.
  8. Freud 32-34.
  9. The above three paragraphs were adapted from my earlier essay "A Freudian Slip," found on http://andrewthereader.blogspot.com
  10. Johnson 55.
  11. Johnson 56.
  12. Johnson 57.
  13. Johnson 56.
  14. Johnson 58.
  15. Johnson 62.
  16. Johnson 66.
  17. Johnson 67.
  18. Johnson 68-69.
  19. Johnson 69-70.
  20. Johnson 73.
  21. Johnson 73.
  22. Freud 42.
  23. Freud 41.
  24. Sigmund Freud, Three Essays on the Theory of Sexuality, trans. and ed. James Strachey (New York: Basic, 1962), 58-59.
  25. 2 Freud 59.
  26. Johnson 74.
  27. Johnson 14.
  28. Johnson 90.
  29. Johnson 90.
  30. Johnson 86.
  31. Johnson 93.
  32. Johnson 98.
  33. Johnson 103, 105.
  34. Johnson 72.
  35. Johnson 73.
  36. Johnson 81.
  37. Johnson 106.
  38. Johnson 83-84.
  39. Johnson 106.
  40. Johnson 89.
  41. Johnson 101.
  42. Johnson 96.
  43. Johnson 118.
  44. Johnson 87.
  45. Johnson 113.
  46. Johnson 114.
  47. Johnson 115.
  48. "
  49. "
  50. "
  51. Johnson 117.
  52. Johnson 125.
  53. "
  54. Johnson 125-126.
  55. Johnson 128.
  56. Boswell 94-95.
  57. Johnson 129-133.
  58. Pat Rogers, ed. The Oxford Illustrated History of English Literature (Oxford: OUP, 2001), 206.
  59. Johnson 116.
  60. Boswell 25.
  61. 1 Freud 42.
  62. Boswell 253.
  63. Johnson 50.
  64. Johnson 64.
  65. Johnson 55.
  66. Boswell 47.
  67. Boswell 51, 57.
  68. Boswell 56.
  69. Boswell 74.
  70. Boswell 246.
  71. Many notable examples, this writer's particular favorite Johnson insulting his biographer in Boswell 362.
  72. Boswell 985-986.
  73. Boswell 986.
  74. Boswell 75.
  75. 1 Freud 57-58.
  76. 1 Freud 57.
  77. Johnson 74-75.
  78. Rogers 206.
  79. Johnson 85.
  80. Johnson 96.
  81. Johnson 520.
  82. Johnson 97.
  83. Johnson 78.
  84. Johnson 79.
  85. Johnson 78.
  86. Johnson 97.
  87. Johnson 129-130.
  88. Johnson 522.
  89. Johnson 130.
  90. Johnson 91.
  91. Johnson 133.
  92. 1 Freud 53.
  93. Johnson 95.
  94. Johnson 79.
  95. Johnson 51.
  96. Johnson 53.
  97. Johnson 52.
  98. Johnson 70.
  99. Boswell 98.
  100. Boswell 100.
  101. Boswell 99.
  102. Johnson 68-69.
  103. Johnson 89.
  104. Boswell 57.
  105. Johnson 112-113.
  106. Boswell 46-47.
  107. Boswell 96.

Let’s Take an Old-Fashioned Walk

On Labor Day yesterday, appropriately enough, I labored. Got a little fresh air and sunshine from a morning jog around Midway Plaisance, then spent a little over six hours writing yesterday's post. Saturday and Sunday, on the other hand, were spent in long walks, one planned, the other not. I can say with confidence, though, that my familiarity with my new neighborhood has never been greater.

Saturday I embarked on a long, long journey to run errands…deposit checks which needed depositing, acquire my first set of schoolbooks (which I did three minutes before the campus Barnes & Noble closed), and visit all the local bookstores. What I learned: the Illinois branches of the Bank of America apparently do not trust those who come with out-of-state accounts, and according to their brochures, I should have 96% of my money in the stock market…alright.

People at the University are refreshingly normal-looking. No giant ear piercings, no weird hairstyles, mostly very sober-on-the-surface, sensible. And since I aspire to stay like that…

I've already sung the praises of the Seminary Co-Op, but Powell's Books by the 57th Street Metra is equally amazing in terms of used books: thousands of volumes at the cheapest prices I've seen since Boston…now on Saturday night I studied until past midnight and came up with a significant revelation regarding Trollope, and I acquired three major volumes (including the Glendinning biography and the Penguin Companion) for a total of $16. Between this moment of deep thought and yesterday's discipline, I feel like a scholar more than ever. On the other hand, 57th Street Books down the street was not worth my time: the Seminary Co-Op but smaller. However, all of these places paled in comparison to the Regenstein Library, where the bookstacks are like the final scene of Raiders of the Lost Ark, only with volume after volume instead of crate after crate.

The Quadrangle is a nice place to eat a tuna salad lunch.

And it's always nice to come home after a day like that to have dinner waiting for you.

Sunday was different…my intention was to take the bus to the Church of St. Paul the Redeemer, my one-time substitute for Brent House until it opens, but my urge to put my new thoughts on Trollope to paper left me unsure if I could make the bus on time, so I walked over to 50th and Dorchester instead. The service was nice, but it made me miss St. James's, where Father Paul's sense of Anglican tradition fused beautifully with his commitment to social justice. St. Paul the Redeemer modernizes the Eucharistic Rite even worse than St. James's did when I started going there. Music was lovely though.

I had decided to take the bus back to campus, but then, after the service, God smiled on me, as I finally met and had really good conversations with three other graduate students at Chicago! First came two very nice girls who share an apartment nearby, Kathleen, a divinity major, and Heather, who studies at the Harris School for Public Policy. We chatted about our work and talked with some other very friendly parishioners (I truly believe it is almost impossible to find an unfriendly Episcopalian, with the possible exception of those who seceded over gay and women's rights), when another man joined in: one of the acolytes, who turned out to be a philosophy Ph. D. candidate with an Oxford degree. (Call me jaw-dropped.) The girls left to go grocery shopping, but Mark asked me to join him for a cup of tea and we spent an hour at a café on 55th Street. And thus I made my first ties to people since I got here…the loneliness of my week by myself vanished, and I'm tempted to say it fueled my writing for the days ahead.

Of course, having reached campus again, there was little point in taking the bus, so I finished my day with a walk to the Crerar Library, where I killed a giant bug and wrote for three hours.

Life is good, and the fun hasn't even started yet…

Monday, September 7, 2009

Three Freudian Considerations of Samuel Johnson’s An Account of the Life of Mr. Richard Savage, In Honor of the Johnsonian Tricentennial: An Informal Essay by Andrew J. Rostan





One imagines it would take something significant to prick up the questioning ears of an alcoholic, gambling womanizer who suffered from seventeen cases of gonorrhea in his lifetime. Thus, when James Boswell professes to be startled by the friendship his friend, mentor, and worship-object Samuel Johnson had for poet Richard Savage, a reader is clued into the fact that this had to be out of the normal or expected.


"Richard Savage," Boswell writes, "a man of whom it is difficult to speak impartially, without wondering that he was for some time the intimate companion of Johnson; for his character was marked by profligacy, insolence, and ingratitude…by associating with Savage, who was habituated to the dissipation and licentiousness of the town, Johnson…was imperceptibly led into some indulgence which occasioned much distress to his virtuous mind." (1)


A more contrasting "companion" could not be better found for Johnson, but Johnson himself makes it impossible for us to ignore their friendship. Though in 1744 he had begun crafting his literary reputation with his excellent poetry, the publication that year of An Account of the Life of Mr. Richard Savage revealed a genius for non-fiction prose which would blossom with his periodicals, commentaries on Shakespeare and the poets, and of course the Dictionary. The biography is detailed, probing, and, in laying bare Savage's considerable quantity of personality flaws, apparently painfully honest…or is it?


Wanting to read a notable sampling of Johnson's writing to mark the three hundredth anniversary of his birth, this writer was struck by the dualistic characters of Savage and Johnson and their correspondence to the psychological consistency of human beings described by Sigmund Freud in 1923's The Ego and the Id. Using Johnson's own text and my own information about the parties drawn from modern critical writings and Boswell's Life, three considerations on approaching Savage took rigorous form. For the three central figures of the biography each represent a Freudian concept. Richard Savage is one, of course, and his alleged mother Countess Anne Macclesfield who lurks through the work as a shadowy antagonist. But the third is almost out of sight in the text, even though he may be the most significant figure involved. For it is a viable contention from a Freudian point of view that Samuel Johnson, in Savage, was actually writing about himself, using his friend as a figure of displacement and self-examination. Dr. Patrick Cruttwell described Savage as "not best thought of either as biography or as criticism. It is really an elegy, almost a poem." (2) If so, it is Johnson's elegy for both a man he considered a true friend and a portion of his own self which he worked to subjugate so to give him the strength and discipline to become one of the greatest English writes of all time.




Richard Savage: A Failing of the Oedipus Complex




By Johnson's account, of which the questionability will be discussed more appropriately in part three, Richard Savage was born the illegitimate son of Countess Anne Macclesfield and Earl Rivers. Macclesfield, following her divorce, disowned the boy and sent him off to live with his nurse Mrs. Lloyd (3), and Rivers passed the rest of his life not knowing his offspring, being told on his deathbed that Savage was already dead. (4) Savage therefore grew up without a father and with an affectionate woman whom he would before long discover (according to Johnson) was not his mother. (5)


Savage therefore had no chance in his definitive childhood years to experience and resolve the Oedipus Complex. To summarize Freud, the Complex occurs when a child is just commencing their development. In every human being is the id, the inner self of desire, emotion, instinct, and unconscious thought…every possible conception a person can imagine. Humans also each possess an ego, the outside self of intellect, reason, and conscious thought which is always visible to the external world. But while the id is fully formed from birth, the ego develops through perception. In the Oedipus Complex, our most basic need, the need for love, causes a small boy (in the cases of Savage and Johnson) to desire his mother, whom he perceives feeds him, nurtures him, and showers him with parental love, and feel opposed to, even murderous of, the father he perceives to be as similar to him. The Complex resolves when a boy chooses to reject the desires he has for his mother and further identify with his father as another man. This may at first appear to be an absolute triumph of the ego, recognizing their common nature through perception, but closer examination reveals the desires of the id still intact but transformed. The child still feels affection for his mother, since he perceives that the father he imitates holds the same affection, and also still feels separate from his father through recognition that he is still unalike from him, indeed must be unalike, for a father has certain prerogatives a son cannot have, parental responsibility and sexual relations with the mother to name just two. The instrument of resolution is actually a part of the ego which progresses deep into the unconscious called the superego, or ego ideal, which is responsible for the healthy human personality, for an uncontrollable id would bring about destructive pain through a constant pursuit of pleasure, but a firmly dominant ego would lead to a complete repression of emotions just as disastrous to the psyche. (6)


The job of the superego is to take our infinite capacity for thought, emotion, and desire and channel it into a reasonable form (an object, as Freud would say) which is acceptable in both our self-perception and the perceptions of others. The id is incapable of perceiving, including the perception that others perceive the world as we do and thus perceive us. The ego, based in perception, is weaker because it does not possess such a wide range of thoughts. The only way the ego can maintain equilibrium with the id is to create new venues for the same emotions which are intellectually sound. The superego, an unconscious part of the ego which sometimes manifests itself as the guilt-stricken prick of conscience, takes our desires and uses intelligence to make alternatives which to quote Freud tell the id, "Look, you can love me, the ego, too. I am just like the original object." (7)


Not only does the superego resolve the Oedipus Complex in this fashion, it also shapes human morality and society. By establishing attachments to two elders whose behaviors in the world are perceivable, it gives a child a model to imitate and learn proper conduct and values from. Freud felt that our notion of God came from the superego, not wanting our desire to be like our parents to grow too powerful, to create an all-powerful being whose goodness and overarching rules gave us notions of morality and restraint. However, we then hit upon the scenario of where masses of people believed this, and the individual id sees these masses as rivals for the affection of his all-powerful "father," for they are his children, too. Thus the superego goes to work again by, as it did with the Complex, using our perceptions of similarity to others to turn jealousy and hatred into identification and empathy. By learning to fit in, stable society is formed, and a person's perceptions of how they are different from the others in society leads to personality and identity. (8) (9)


However, maturing with such disadvantages, Richard Savage was not able to properly experience the Oedipus Complex as Freud intended. His perceptions gave him no father to imitate and a mother who did not love and nurture him but instead attempted to keep him mired at the bottom of existence. During a period where he constantly sought to make contact with Macclesfield and was just as constantly rejected (10), Savage likewise searched for a father figure and found one in Sir Richard Steele, the famed essayist. (11) Steele gave Savage, a writer of some talent, the idea that one could make a living by his pen, but Steele was also an impecunious man who lived with his finances in a day-to-day state of uncertainty and knew how to use shock value to get people to notice him and, more importantly, assist him. (12) Worse, Steele, who knew Savage's history, told him "that the inhumanity of his mother had given him a right to find every good man his father." (13) Savage would keep these principles to heart even after dissolving his ties with Steele (14), but he still had little sense of self-identity as yet.


Using his education and Steele's example, Savage, still trying to make contact with the evasive Anne Macclesfield, began a literary career. His first noticeable work, going by the principle "write what you know," was a tragedy on the life of Sir Thomas Overbury, a nobleman ultimately executed when he tried to interfere with a powerful woman's divorce. (15) Colley Cibber's company staged the play and Cibber insisted Savage portray Overbury although the writer had no desire to be an actor. (15) However, unbeknownst to Savage, an opportunity would soon come which would give him the chance to act before a vast public and create the identity he was searching for.


During a drunken night out with friends, Savage got into an altercation at an inn which ended in him stabbing a man to death. In the trial, Savage chose to defend himself, and the reluctant actor now revealed an eloquence and gift for words as he pleaded and argued for leniency (16)…the fictional step towards identity by equating himself to a man who stuck to his principles despite a rich divorcee's persecution now resulted in a real step being taken. Savage decided that without a father and with a mother bent on his destruction, the only person who could save him was himself. From his murder trial until the end of his life, Richard Savage consciously chose to be beholden to no one. If life and society gave him no proper compass (apart from Steele), he would live in society on his own terms.


This began with Savage finally making a break from Anne Macclesfield who, according to Johnson, used her influence to ensure that Savage, convicted of murder when the judge summarized against him (17), was denied leniency. (18) Saved from the gallows only by a last-minute plea from the even more powerful Countess of Hertford (19), Savage decided that from then on he would deal with Macclesfield the way she dealt with him. Dropping his earlier behavior of filial love and submission, he now threatened "to harass her with lampoons, and to publish a copious narrative of her conduct" (19) unless she paid him off. Anne's younger relation Lord Tyrconnel thus became Savage's patron.


Richard Savage now entered his "golden period," (20) possessed with a stream of money, a burgeoning career as a poet and pamphleteer, and the friendship of other writers and nobility alike, including his patron Tyrconnel, who received him into the family estate. Savage should have been set for life. Unfortunately, his subsequent behavior would be a perfect Freudian case study of what happens when a person fails to resolve the Oedipus Complex and thus develop a superego. Savage's life as Johnson describes it fits in perfectly with the workings of an uncontrolled, self-centered, non-perceptive id.


Among other qualities, the id is responsible for our desire of pleasure or erotic drive (21), but in Freud's ideas on the maladjusted personality, love can become hatred when a weakened ego's perceptions of others lead the id's wide range of thoughts to decide that the "other" is too similar and equal to us, making us paranoid that in society, a choice between us and our equal for anything—job, romantic partner, resource allocation—will be uncertain and possibly lead to the other working towards our destruction. (22) The excessive id also leads to cruelty, because lack of a superego and underdeveloped ego creates a person who "cannot fully understand how others are oppressed by pain." (23) Cruelty stems from a desire for mastery and fears of self-possession being lost (24), and in an effort to preserve our self-determination we can end up not caring whom we hurt. Savage's desire for an individual, unfettered existence led to a rapid development of a cruel streak in his nature, most often in his writing poetry which attacked others who had at one time been his friends. (25)


However, the ultimate effect of Richard Savage's failed resolution of the Oedipus Complex was that, without a superego, he had a pronounced lack of empathy. Without a model for moral conduct and a lack of good perceptive identification, Savage gave little thought to the feeling of others and of any moral considerations. Crutwell says Savage is "concerned with a man maniacally bent on self-destruction;" (26) this is true in the sense that by giving in to the urges of his id, Savage set himself up for a life of constant devastation to himself and his friends.


There were two main ways Savage's pronounced id thwarted a healthy life, psychological and otherwise, for him. First, Savage lived in opposition to Johnson's principle that happiness can only be found in virtue, that men have peace of mind when they know they act well even when their plans go awry. (27) Without a moral compass, Savage refused to learn anything regarding virtuous behavior and placed his happiness in the temporal, and when one avenue of happiness failed, he would pick himself up and try it again, being none the wiser and unable to judge that his behavior was bringing him misery. In Johnson's words, "He proceeded throughout his life to tread the same steps on the same circle; always applauding his past conduct, or at least forgetting it, to amuse himself with phantoms of happiness, which were dancing before him; and willingly turned his eyes from the light of reason." (28) Savage could not learn from his behavior because he could only see his point of view on any subject, and Savage at times becomes a recitation of him repeating his tactics with diminishing returns. Johnson's examples include Savage continually milking his story for sympathy (29), writing sycophantic poetry in hopes of reward (30), spending the money his patrons gave him in rapid bursts and falling quicker into debt, a la Steele (31), and most significantly, always ascribing his state to the machinations of others while never abandoning the practice of accepting their hospitality. (32)


This was Savage's second failing of the id. He could not recognize that people from Lord Tyrconnel to Alexander Pope to Johnson himself took him into their intimacy because of his virtues as a wit, an inventive writer, a great man to have for a party, and when the mood struck him (as it admittedly did on many occasions) a generous friend. (33) When Savage began his associations with the British elite following the murder trial and Tyrconnel's patronage, he hadn't actually done anything of literary significance—a few poems no one much cared for and a play which came and went. Obviously, there were some good qualities, some promise these people recognized in Richard Savage which made them want to associate with him. (34)


These qualities were of little lasting impact in a man whose massive id and lack of superego convinced him that he was on his own, that since his parents had turned their backs on him he had a right to turn his back on the world, and as compensation should expect every good man to be his father. Those who befriended Savage became not allies but victims, as he constantly spent their money, threw their homes into disarray with his drunkenness and irregular hours, and stuck them with every bill he accumulated. (35) He went so far as to reject offers of assistance which would have curbed his chosen manner of living, even going so far as to turn down a man who would have lent him money simply because the man wanted to meet him at nine in the morning! (36) Savage's ego was also no help: Johnson claimed that part of Savage's writing ability came from being a keen student of human nature, but he admits Savage mostly observed the flaws and follies of nobility and successful writers, as if building up ammunition and argument for his misfortunes (37)…it is as if Savage's studies of his friends led to a preordained, id-devised conclusion. "I was of noble birth and I'm just as great a writer as they are, but they're successful and I'm not…but they have failings of their own, so why should I bother to correct anything in myself which they don't like?" Savage would continually use his pen, as aforementioned, to criticize and attack his associates; he may have been trying to knock them off the pedestals he saw in his mind. Johnson's claim that people were afraid of Savage's pen (38) appears over the top. More likely they were annoyed and irritated, with fears only that he might persecute them as he persecuted Anne, whom he did finally attack in print with his poem "The Bastard." (39) Even indirectly, Savage's work struck out for his own individuality against others; he developed a sympathy for colonies in his last, "public" poetry, seeing these new outposts as enthralled to more powerful beings as he was. (40) Savage also possessed a desire for exhibitionism, speaking out on any topic which might get him noticed, not caring who he offended in the process, even when he had no knowledge of the topic. (41)


Johnson ultimately offers some mild criticism of Savage's other friends, saying that since his work did them no personal injury, they should have ignored it. (42) In effect, he argues that people with healthy personalities should be lenient to others' destructive behaviors. This opinion was shared by Johnson's esteemed colleague and Savage's greatest patron, Alexander Pope, whose genuine regard for Savage's poetry kept him in the Savage corner for years. Following Tyrconnel's withdrawing of patronage, unable to tolerate Savage's flagrant behavior and insults anymore (43), Savage's friends decided to make a last-ditch effort to help him by sending him out of London with strict monetary controls so he could rewrite the Overbury tragedy and other works and thus re-establish his reputation. This marked a total curtailing of his freedom, but Savage agreed because Pope framed the scheme in a psychologically-appealing manner: he convinced Savage that if he devoted himself to his career he would be able to make money and live his life "without any dependence on those little creatures which we are pleased to call the Great." (44) It was a perfect feeding of the id's vanity, and Savage bit.


However, as events quickly proved, Richard Savage was beyond help. Stuck in Wales, completely beholden to others (he at one point grew angry that a tailor not of his choosing came to measure him for clothes (45)), his efforts to write drama and poetry gave way to a growing bitterness and resentment. Savage reached his threshold when Pope wrote a letter for him to Tyrconnel's friend Sir William Lemon, an epistle of admittance and forgiveness to bring Savage's other great advocate back into his camp. (46) From the first, Savage disliked the idea "that any man should presume to dictate a letter to him" (47), but when he read Pope's carefully crafted words of "sentiments entirely opposite to his own," (48) his id broke free in a blatant assertion of his own power in revolt against everyone trying to tell him what to do, even when they clearly knew what was good for him better than he knew it himself. Fueled by his id's desires, Savage wrote his own blatantly derogatory letter to Tyrconnel (49), then refused to let more experienced dramatists edit and correct his tragedy for suitability for the stage. (50) Either one of these actions could have saved him, but Savage's determination to live an individual existence, once unleashed from a temporary check, overpowered whatever reason he had left. Finally, Savage was arrested for his spiraling debts and sent to Newgate Prison.


Paradoxically, prison was the perfect environment for Savage. Under the humane treatment of the keeper, Savage had his own room, a constant supply of food, privileges for time outdoors, and most of all, the ignorance of his benefactor, allowing him to retreat from the world for writing and thought. (51) As Johnson says, "he suffered fewer hardships in prison than he had been accustomed to undergo in the greatest part of his life." (52) But his newfound "freedom" got the better of him one final, disastrous time. Savage determined to write a poem where he would deride everyone whom he thought put him on the path to incarceration, and then put his name to it against, as always, the judgment of his friends. (53) This act of self-assertion ultimately led to Pope breaking from him. In Johnson's account, Savage's health rapidly failed knowing he had lost his last champion, and predictably, Newgate's keeper had to pay for the burial after Richard Savage, a slave to the id, finally died.




Samuel Johnson: The Triumph of the Superego




Richard Savage's self-centered life and death stand, as Boswell truly said, at complete opposition to that of Samuel Johnson, a man whose high-minded approach to his writing ability, devotion to his friends, and ingrained reverence mark every page of his life story. Yet when Johnson set up residence in London, he and Savage embarked on that puzzling intimacy which led them, two indigent writers, to "wander together whole nights in the streets…not at all depressed by their situation, but in high spirits." (53) Furthermore, for all of Savage's chronicling of his vices and horridness, Johnson keeps arguing that Savage possessed virtues as well, notably in a warm final summary full of regarding praise mixed with shameful admittance that his life was not as it should have been. (54) Johnson's portrait was so well-rounded that critics could not decide if he was making an attack on Savage or a defense, a lampoon of his character or an apology for it. (55) This close bond with his subject makes it all the more puzzling at first glance that Johnson absented himself from Savage apart from one anonymous reference. (56) Puzzling, that is, until the biography is put into the context of Johnson's own life and Freudian analysis-based character. For in 1744, Samuel Johnson was going through a defining turning point which would mark the rest of his existence, and the 35 year-old writer, recognizing this, knew that he now had an opportunity like no other to examine his own self and prepare for what was to come. An Account of the Life of Richard Savage is, in the last reading, as much about its author as its subject.


Unlike Savage, Johnson grew up in a nuclear family which, though financially precarious, was personally stable; he loved and respected his parents very much. His mother gave him an intensive religious instruction, but his father, a bookseller who always had the classics on hand, was prone to fits of melancholy. (57) One might assume that it was from Michael Johnson that Samuel took both his rigorous, logical, Latin-influenced writing style and a habitual gloomy temperament which, combined with Sarah Johnson's impressing of faith, gave him a mental state dialectically different from his future friend.


Freud claims that we all have a drive for death within us to balance our drive for life and sex, and while the latter is situated in the id, the former is produced by the ego, which perceives that life comes from nothingness and will return to nothingness, and so wishes to hasten us along to the logical conclusion. (58) Johnson's environment also made him a great candidate for belief in God as an all-powerful figure who determines a moral standard we must live up to or face eternal condemnation for, the gist of Sarah Johnson's personal character. Filled with a significant devotion to God and Christian ethics which marked his life, Johnson, whose traditional family prompted a normal resolution of the Oedipus Complex, early on began to show signs of an expansive superego. A reading of his prayers and meditations is based around a recurring theme of Johnson criticizing himself, resolving to do better, even looking at his behavior and saying "This is not the life to which Heaven is promised." (59)


Johnson arrived in London in 1737 and soon after met Savage, eleven years his senior. Through his own process of psychological identification, Johnson must have seen a man very similar to himself. The implication on the very first page of Savage that the accomplished, when they fall, fall harder because they have more to lose (60), suggests that Savage was, if not on the exact same intellectual level as Johnson, had some form of learned knowledge comparable to Johnson's literary expertise. When Johnson describes Savage as a man who "it being in no time of [his] life any part of his character to be the first of the company that desired to separate" (61), the future co-founder of the Literary Club and incomparable conversationalist could easily have been painting a picture of himself. Also like Savage, or at least the Savage he writes of, Johnson was clearly above the norm in writing, speaking, and persuasive argument…and was not yet recognized as such by this point. In truth, there were two similarities in their personae which Johnson was quick to seize upon, the first of which was completely true: both were poor men who had turned to writing "by necessity." (62)


Johnson had not deliberately set out to be a man of letters. His ambitions were to obtain a degree from Oxford and become an educator, but the family's financial straits forced him to leave before graduation (63) and attempts to set up his own school or find employment as a teacher or translator came to naught. (64) Inspired by his lifelong friend David Garrick, Johnson accompanied him to London with, like Savage, a tragic drama, but it initially failed to get produced and Johnson was stuck. By this time, he also had a wife, Elisabeth, almost double his age and to whom he was as devoted as to his mother. (65) Needing money, he picked up his pen and became a regular contributor to the Gentleman's Magazine, and quickly began to cultivate a reputation. (66) Savage was a man in the same position who already had a measure of fame, and Johnson was in all likelihood attracted to a man who was proof that success could be had this way (if not permanent success), while Savage may have seen this rising star as a young protégé whom someday he could sponge off.


However, there was another similarity between Johnson and Savage which may only have existed in Johnson's mind. A man of sharp intellect would have been quick to perceive at least some of the flaws in Savage's character, but Johnson would have been accepting of these drawbacks, as later he would forgive the weaknesses of friends such as Boswell and Topham Beauclerk, because he considered himself just as flawed. Johnson was well aware of temperamental and immoderate streaks in himself. On a more exterior level, he could overeat and drink too much to the point where he would have to force abstentious behavior on himself. (66) Within, he had a streak for argument and, mildly, a belief in the superiority of his convictions which paralleled Savage's own inflated ego and often led him to insult his friends. (67) More significantly, Johnson, as a man in the prime of his life, not unreasonably found some sexual dissatisfaction with a wife well past child-bearing age. When Boswell places a final reminiscence of Johnson's years with Savage near the end of the Life, stating that Johnson "owned to many of his friends, that he used to take women of the town to taverns, and hear them relate their history" (68), his delicate language towards the man he idolized, coupled with the ensuing declaration that "in his combats with [his propensities], he was sometimes overcome" (69), speaks to a period of adulterous gratification which would obviously have shaken the senses of such a devout psyche.


Savage was a disagreeable man who could indulge in heavy drinking and illicit sex, and he died before his time a friendless figure in prison. This was 1743, by which time Johnson's poem "London," political reporting, and various essays had won him the attentions of Pope and other luminaries. (70) He was rising just as Savage had once risen, but his unforgiving superego warned him that continuing in similar behaviors could result in just as great a fall. At the same time, Johnson had a generosity of spirit which made him love the personable Savage, and he wanted to give a man of some virtue his dignity, for Johnson was a man who hated easily, but unlike Savage striking out carelessly at the world, his hatred was turned in towards himself. In most people, Freud theorizes, the anger comes from the instability of the ego, trying to please the conventions of the outside world, the relentlessness of the id, and the superego which is frustrated by having too much information from perceptions to deal with and the fact that the id will always be larger than the ego and so manifests out of the unconscious as guilt. (71) In most people the ego turns against the superego by directing its self-hatred onto an external object (72), as Savage was want to do. But Johnson's superego was so mighty as to keep his anger firmly directed at himself. When he saw the end come for a man he believed shared his flaws, conflicting emotions must have been flowing through him.


Thus upon close examination, Savage is revealed to be a complex document with a mission under its surface: Samuel Johnson's attempt at self-exorcism and catharsis.


The first crucial passage comes when Johnson writes of Savage's tendency to lampoon and criticize his friends in his writing: "man may change his principles, and that he, who was once deservedly commended, may be afterwards satirized with equal justice, or that the poet was dazzled with the appearance of virtue, and found the man whom he had celebrated, when he had an opportunity of examining him more narrowly, unworthy of the panegyric which he had too hastily bestowed." (73) Johnson's implication is one which the critics missed: every man and situation can be praised and blamed depending on subjectivity and nothing else. Thus Johnson, considering the whole picture, would not use his biography to attack Savage or otherwise write an encomium. He was writing things as they were, a characteristic of his style which would carry on through his life, according to the Oxford History of English Literature: he shared in his observations of life "neither Pope's readiness to prescribe remedies nor Swift's to proclaim despair." (74)


Savage's growing submission to his id as his name becomes more famous, Johnson goes on, both prompted that boldness of his pen and led him to consider himself as having triumphed over his obstacles. "Superiority of fortune," Johnson says, "has a natural tendency to kindle pride, and that pride seldom fails to exert itself in contempt and insult." (75) It is the first time in the text he condemns Savage, whom he hitherto depicted as a victim. This sudden reversal makes sense when one sees that Johnson was condemning the root of all his perceived failings: the pride that made him argumentative, made him dominate the conversation, and worst of all, made him flout the commandments of the lord by sleeping with women not his wife. Savage was a man of destructive pride and irresistible erotic (in the Freudian sense) energy. In Savage, Johnson saw the shadows of his own soul extrapolated to a terrifying level. He is not being merciless to Savage, but merciless to the inner desires he hated and feared in himself.


The guilty man is thus driven to repentance, and repentance comes when Johnson comes to the scandal of Savage's "The Progress of a Divine," a poem written in response to a singular religious controversy he had no personal stake in (76) and in Cruttwell's words "a thoroughly unpleasant poem" with "a strong taste for sadistic sexual fantasy." (77)


Johnson splits hairs that the poem was not obscene but merely introduced obscene topics in order to educate the public to avoid licentiousness (78), but it is not left to the reader to judge. Apart from some stanzas of "The Wanderer" (79), Johnson never quotes Savage's poetry. This sounds odd in the biography of a poet, but Johnson's assertion is that he is dealing with Savage as a biographer, not a critic, and literary analysis in this case falls beyond the scope of his mission. (80) He suffices by describing the poetry as accomplished and touched by artistic genius, though his one bit of commentary following actual quotation mixes admiration with a judgment that there was little logic involved in composition, comparing it to "a heap of shining materials thrown together by accident." (81) This is a generous and necessary action on Johnson's part, for excessive criticism of the one accomplishment of Savage's life would have thrown doubts on the validity of his deserving to have his life written at all, and Johnson can thus elegize his friend without backing himself into a critical corner.


But back to "The Progress of a Divine." Johnson states flat-out that for a non-obscene poem, it is still bad enough that Savage's "conduct cannot be vindicated," but he asserts Savage "never intended to repeat the provocation; and that, though, whenever he thought he had any reason to complain of the clergy, he used to threaten them with a new edition of The Progress of a Divine, it was his calm and settled resolution to suppress it forever." (82) Now how could Johnson have known this for a fact, especially if Savage kept dropping hints he would revive and expand the poem and would prove to break literary promises by writing attacks against Macclesfield even after she arranged for him to be paid not to? It may have been an instance of Savage's guilt, but his lack of a superego and declared refusal to learn from his mistakes suggest he never knew the meaning of the word "guilt." No, when Johnson resolves to suppress forever a description of sexual depravity, he is quietly speaking for himself and his own intention to suppress his basest instincts. He displaces his penitence onto Savage.


All of this being said, there is no greater instance of displacement then found in the concluding pages of Savage. After Savage's death and a physical description, Johnson devotes three paragraphs to a summary of Savage's virtues: a man of judgment, perception, and excellent memory who devoted his life to acquiring knowledge through study, close conversation, and observations of human nature. (83) Johnson's future editor Birkbeck Hill would say "much of Johnson's own character is described" (84) in this passage. There is enough in the composition of Savage to suggest Johnson's friend really did have these attributes, though, as Johnson subsequently admits, "it cannot be said, that he made use of his abilities for the direction of his own conduct" (84), for as he earlier said, Savage "was not a good man but a friend of goodness." (85) A man who possessed great mental gifts and understood virtue but could not practice it: such a man is worthy of Johnson's concluding sentence, "that negligence and irregularity, long continued, will make knowledge useless, wit ridiculous, and genius contemptible." (86)


This is a warning both for the general public and Johnson himself. Freud believed that man was more moral than he actually knew, for since morality was the product of the unconscious superego, it was very hard to recognize one's own worth. (87) Johnson's superego was a castigator and condemner, not given to praise its master. Johnson felt his knowledge, wit, and genius, however good, were a blessing from God not to be abused, and negligent and irregular behavior on his own part would render them meaningless if he ended up in the damnation, so the final summation is crouched in language not actually condemning Savage, for Johnson has no wish to condemn himself. He wrote Savage as a reassurance that he could still be saved if he worked at foiling the worst attributes he shared with Savage, and that early passage hinting at the piece's objectivity is actually a plea: Johnson does not want us to praise or blame Savage because he did not want praise or blame himself from outside parties. He hoped they saw him as a man trying to live life as best as he could, in constant improvement, and would not judge but accept and forgive.


There is of course an argument against such an interpretation: as previously said, the biography's composition plays up Richard Savage's good qualities enough to imply he truly did possess virtue equivalent to his vice. However, the text is also written with a strong thoroughness and exhaustive chronicling of Savage's deeds, anecdotes of striking particularity being inserted every so often. At about the halfway point of the book, Johnson includes one story of Savage winning in court again, this time when he was accused of sedition: the sheer exactness of the charge "made Mr. Savage's vindication easy; for he had never in his life seen the place which was declared to be the scene of his wickedness, nor ever had been present in any town where its representatives were chosen." (88) In other words, the more particular the details, the less they apply to Savage. Samuel Johnson wrote about Savage with an astounding psychological probity, even claiming to know his exact intentions…in most cases, such probity can only come when you are writing of your own self.


In the end, though, this writer can point out one passage where Johnson was writing about Savage and no one else. In his commentary on "The Wanderer," that one moment of actual literary criticism, Johnson calls it an illustration of Savage's "first great position, 'that good is the consequence of evil.'" (89) Now this might be seen as a Voltaire-level excuse for any form of behavior, but for Johnson, from this reading of The Life of Mr. Richard Savage, he might have been giving Savage credence, for in inspiring Johnson's own variation of exorcism and catharsis, providing him an appropriate vehicle to explore and come to terms with his mental turmoil, Richard Savage's morally substandard life may have done Samuel Johnson much good. His subsequent literary output, while philosophically deep and intellectually profound, never again touched on such naked emotion.


Anne Macclesfield: Misogyny Misconstrued


There is a final point to be made in examining Savage which is minor compared to the struggles of its two protagonists, but is still significant. Samuel Johnson utilizes his pen to vilify Countess Anne Macclesfield as a person of unqualified despicability.


In Johnson's account of her behavior, Macclesfield conceived Savage with Earl Rivers as an instrument to secure her divorce from Lord Macclesfield, whom she loathed (90), for bearing a child outside of marriage was the easiest proof of adultery you could obtain. Macclesfield achieved her goal, but did so by flagrantly flying in the face of propriety by using two different men and giving birth to a son she did not want. Without a sufficient maternal instinct, it makes psychological sense that Macclesfield's unconscious guilt over her affair led her to displace her anger onto the concrete object of her deeds: Richard Savage himself. Her unwillingness to acknowledge or support Savage is psychologically true up to this point, but Johnson then tells of how she deceived Rivers into thinking Savage was dead, cheating him out of an inheritance she could not even touch herself. (91) This is doing evil for the sheer pleasure of evil, the mark of a sociopath.


Johnson's language is suitably full of invective. Anne Macclesfield, rather than loving her son, "would take every opportunity of aggravating his misfortunes…and with an implacable and restless cruelty continue her persecution from the first hour of his life to his last." (92) Then, when Macclesfield obstructs Savage's plea for clemency after his murder conviction, Johnson describes her as taking pleasure "that the life, which she often endeavoured to destroy, was at least shortened by her maternal offices." (93)


For anyone acquainted with Johnson, this misogynistic character assassination does not fully add up for two reasons. First, whatever Johnson may have thought about the intellectual capacities of the opposite sex (the famous quote about Mrs. Montague's essay on Shakespeare need not be quoted here), he loved women. His devotions to his mother and wife have already been described, and later he would equally revere Hester Thrale and Fanny Burney, among others, after Elisabeth's death. To despise a woman so vilely was not in his nature unless she gave sufficient cause.


Which leads to the second reason: as Johnson was intelligent enough to perceive the vices of Richard Savage's character, he had to have known that Savage's claim to be Macclesfield's son was in the end inconclusive at best. James Boswell, still pondering the Johnson-Savage friendship as he crafted his Life, researched the case on his own, utilizing his own vocation as a lawyer, and discovered that there was never any birth like Savage's described in the registry Johnson named, and that in her adultery trial Macclesfield actually mounted a defense against her character, rather than submit to carrying the stigma of an unfaithful wife. (94) Boswell did not want to say so with assurance, for his own regard for Johnson left him reluctant to determine Johnson was fooled by Savage (95), but if Johnson was correct in describing Savage's keen intelligence, it would not be beyond his bounds to pose as the son of Macclesfield and Rivers (whom Boswell felt actually did die at his birth) in pursuit of riches and aspirations. (96) If this were the case, it would further explain why Macclesfield was so obstinate against Savage—she was annoyed by him and a little afraid of him, as anyone would be of a man who pressed his way into your house declaring himself to be your son (97)—and why Savage was so quick to be jealous and hurtful to his patrons: he knew that despite his claims, he was not of their standing, and was actually jealous that they had the life he wanted.


The question remains, then, that if Johnson was aware Richard Savage was not Anne Macclesfield's son, why then would he turn the countess into a figure of scorn? The answer, this writer feels, lies in Savage's conversation with Macclesfield following the murder trial, when he decided he would rely solely on himself from then on in all matters of life. Until then, he had played the part of the loyal, loving son who just wanted maternal affection and acknowledgement and been, in his mind, rebuffed, persecuted, and nearly sent to the grave by her. Now Savage turns threatening, promising his "mother" he will use his newfound notoriety to publicly make her life miserable unless she gives him what he wants. In effect, he is acting exactly the way he though she acted towards him. Even Macclesfield's finally giving in was not enough for Savage, for his writings ultimately spread his story of her birthing and treatment of him across the country, an act of psychological cruelty which, since she was in all likelihood not his mother, is extremely difficult to forgive. (98)


If Savage is in the end a metaphor for Johnson, so Macclesfield becomes a metaphor for the id and all the destructive instincts within. By Johnson's account, Savage is neither particularly good nor bad until he uses Macclesfield's techniques against her. From then on, he falls into the spiral of pride, arrogance, and hatred which results in his poverty and death. The malicious portrait is not meant to be of Anne herself but of the id's unceasing drive, and Johnson paints it in shades so black that when Savage begins copying them, the stakes are unmistakably clear. Anne Macclesfield was not a villainess, but a convenient representative for the contrary and sinful urges Samuel Johnson was trying to suppress in himself.


The final concern, then, is how Johnson selected her to be his construct for the worst of humanity. In terms of the author's personal convictions, Macclesfield was the most flagrant sinner Savage had reason to know in his life before the murder trial. She had divorced her husband and had a child with another man. Johnson believed in the principle of subordination and the sanctity of marriage. (99) No matter how unhappy she was, Macclesfield had a duty to stand by her husband. Her moment of self-possession made it convenient for Johnson to use her boldness as the starting point for worse depravity.




Near the end of Richard Savage's life, a friend noticed his fine clothes had been reduced to rags and left him the gift of an outfit at a coffee house. Savage was so stung by this that he refused to enter the establishment until the clothes were removed, satisfying his pride. (100) Similarly, Samuel Johnson famously rejected a pair of shoes someone anonymously left him to replace his own worn-out possessions during his final, desperate days at Oxford. (101) For all this writer knows, that might have been enough for Johnson to identify with Savage, empathize with him, try to give a representative of all struggling literary men a decent legacy, and in turn use his own brilliance to make what appeared to be a sensational biography a riveting portrait of a soul in turmoil, trying to find redemption, even if in the process he had to knowingly defame a decent woman's character to keep such a personal confession crouched in obscurity.


Little wonder, then, that Johnson responded to Boswell's questions about the writing of his first prose masterpiece, "I wrote forty-eight of the printed octavo pages of the Life of Savage at a sitting; but then I sat up all night." (102) Such an artistic work of psychological self-examination would keep even the strongest and steeliest of men awake in created darkness.


Footnotes and epilogue coming soon!